You and I (Niall Horan Fanfiction)

Chapter 7

Niall's POV

It all happened so fast. Connie ran out the door when I asked about the scars on her wrist. I quickly asked the waitress for the bill and paid for the meals. I ran out the restaurant to see if I could catch up to her. Thankfully, she was just sitting on the edge of the sidewalk.

Connie's POV

I shouldn't have ran out and caused a huge scene. However, he saw the scars on my wrist and I couldn't hold back the tears. I looked down at my wrist and all it did was bring back terrible thoughts and memories. I sat down on the edge of the sidewalk with my head buried into my knees. All of a sudden, someone grabbed onto my shoulder gently.

"Hey Connie, what's wrong?" Niall said.

"Niall, I'm so sorry! I shouldn't have walked out and caused a huge scene." I said with tears down my face.

He wrapped his arm around me and said, "Hey, it's alright. But, please, tell me what's wrong?"

At that moment, I was contemplating if I should tell him about my life. He's someone I just met. Besides, things I go through, some people just don't understand. I'm afraid If I tell him, he's just going to walk away. At the same time, I have this feeling I can trust him. He's been so sweet to me and we get along really well.

I took a deep breath and said, "In the past 4 years, I've been dealing with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder. So many people look down on this disorder. It may not seem like it because I've been taking anti-depressants and going to therapy. However, before getting all the help, I felt like I was living in hell. All the rituals and negative thoughts was controlling my life. It really took a toll on my relationship with my family, since they didn't understand and I started to become depressed. I started to do poorly in school and neglecting everyone, especially one of my best friends, Evan. We were really close, but I felt like we were becoming too close and it scared me. I mean, who wants to deal with me? At the same time, we both had feelings for each other. However, neglecting him just made him give up on our friendship. I tried apologized for not telling him everything that was happening, but he wouldn't listen. At that point, I've became even more depressed and started self-harming and had thoughts of suicide."

Niall's POV

I was so shocked to hear all about this. Looking at Connie, you would've never guessed she was going through all of this. She was the most out-going, energetic and positive person I know. But, with all that she went through, I guessed it only made her stronger. She was looking at a different direction than me to hide her face. I slowly placed my hands on her cheeks and turned her head towards me.

"Connie, thank you for opening up to me. It takes a lot of strength and courage to do so. I just wanted to say that I'm so happy with how much progressed you made throughout this entire obstacle. You're such a strong person and I believe you can get through all of this. And about Evan, he's not even worth your time. If someone can't understand why you neglected him because you didn't want to open up to him or for telling you sooner, he's not a real friend. You deserve someone so much better."

"Honestly, I don't even know who would want to deal with me." Connie chuckled a bit while crying.

"Me." I said.

Connie turned and looked into my eyes and smiled.

"When you're with me, I promise that everything will be okay." I said gently.

I kissed her on the forehead. I told her we could walk back to the Air Canada Centre now. It was silent throughout the whole walk back, but I knew she probably didn't want to talk. We got back to the stadium and to the dressing room.

Connie's POV

I turned and looked into his eyes and smiled.

"When you're with me, I promise that everything will be okay." He said gently.

He kissed me on the forehead. He said that we could go back to the Air Canada Centre now. It was silent throughout the whole walk, but I didn't feel like talking. We got back to the stadium and to the dressing room.

By now, I already wiped all of my tears, yet my eyes were still a bit red. We walked into the dressing room and I waved to everyone. No one seemed to notice I was crying before, until Bernice looked at me and mouthed,

"Are you okay?" She said with a concerned look on her face.

Bernice knew me so well to know something was wrong.

I mouthed back saying, "Don't worry, I'm fine."

She nodded but still gave me a concerned look. It was about 2 p.m. now. The boys had to do another sound check for their fans. Bernice and I stayed back in the dressing room, probably because she wanted to ask me about what happened.

When the boys left, she turned to me and said, "Alright, what's wrong?"

"Nothing, I just sort of opened up to Niall about everything that happened in my life, you know." I said.

"Oh, for a second, I thought he made you upset and I would have to go up to him and punch him." Bernice laughed.

I laughed and said, "No he didn't, he was really caring and understanding."

"So, I'm guessing you have some feelings for him?" Bernice said and winked.

"No I don't think so. I told you, I can't just like someone from knowing them for 2 days. But, anyways, how are you and Harry?" I said.

Bernice squealed and said, "He asked me out on a date!"

I squealed and said, "Oh my gosh! That's awesome? When and where?!"

"Tomorrow. And he didn't tell me where, but he said just to dress casual." Bernice said.

"I'm so happy for you." I said as I gave Bernice a hug.

For the next hour or so, Bernice and I just sat in the dressing room and talked. By 5 p.m., the boys came back to the dressing room, but had no time to really talk. They had to all get ready for the concert at 7 p.m. I just sat there while Lou, was doing Niall's hair. I was just on my phone and occasionally when I looked up, I saw Niall in the mirror giving me a smile. I smiled backed at him.

It was about 7 p.m. and the concert started already. 5 Seconds of Summer was performing and everyone was just back stage watching. Niall and I were standing next to each other when he turned to me and said,

"Hey, are you sure you are okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. Thank you for asking." I said.

"No problem." Niall said.

All of the sudden, the speaker voice announced, "Are you guys ready for One Direction?!"

You could hear everyone in the Air Canada Centre screaming their heads off.

Niall turned to me and said, "Well, see you after the concert."

From there, he kissed me on the cheek. I looked down because I think I was blushing too much. The boys went on stage and Niall looked back and gave me a smile before they started.

I honestly don't know, could I have feelings for him? I mean, no right? Because I just met him, I don't know so much about him even though we were trying to get to know each other better the past few days. At the same time, I still had feelings for Evan. Although, he's treating me like crap now, I still think about the good times we had.

Ugh, I'm so confused.

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