When we got home I ran to the living room to toss all the magazines laying about. The magazines that were calling me fat and ugly. The ones that had been saying I didn't deserve Harry.

As I got it all put away I went to the kitchen to check on the roast I had started before I left for the concert.

"Is that?"

"It is, I thought you'd like some food when you got home, so I made this." I tried to make it sound like I hadn't spent hours trying to perfect it for him.

"Wow, Lexi it smells great!"

"I hope you're hungry." I said back to him as I pulled the tossed spinach salad out of the refrigerator.

"Starving." He said as he went to get some plates out for us to eat on, then he set them next to each other on the table. He put napkins and eating utensils next to them as I filled a couple glasses of water. After that I dished out some of the meat and potatoes whiles Harry put some of the greens on our plates.

We sat looking at each other, in awe of each others presence. It had been so long it was just nice to have him here.

"Do you want to say grace?" I asked him. He angled his head toward the ground as his hands reached across the table to hold mine.

"Lord, thank you so much for this day and the great show and having Lexi come and see it. Thank you for keeping us safe on the road and thank you for keeping Lexi and the other girls and our families safe. Thank you God for each breath and each day both Lexi and I are alive. I know we're grateful to be given that second chance. And please bless this food to our bodies."

"Amen." We said at the same time.

I waited for him to take the first bite before I put a small piece of the meat on my fork.

"Lexi, this is so good, you must have slaved over it!" He said still chewing.

"Nah, it didn't take that long. It's only been cooking while I was gone." He kept one of my
hands in his as he continued to eat.

"It just melts in my mouth." He began again. I began eating the spinach. After Harry had dished himself a second helping he kept looking up at me weird.

Harry's PoV

She seemed different, not as talkative. And she looked different. As I began eating my second helping she took her second bite of the small piece of meat she had on her plate.

"How are you?" I asked putting my fork down and looking deep into her eyes. The seemed to have lost a little color.

"I'm so much better now that you're here." She smiled. I missed that smile more then anything. It made the corners of my lips turn up. I let the fact that she hadn't eaten much slide, she probably wasn't hungry. He told himself. I decided I was done when she stopped eating. "Let's go take showers and then meet on the couch for a film and then lets go to bed." She suggested.

"Okay." I told her. I went back to the kitchen though to take care of the left overs as she headed toward her bathroom. When I hadn't followed she came back to the kitchen to help. "No, you go ahead and take your shower, I just finish in here and shower when I'm done." I knew she wasn't inviting me into her shower but there something about showering at the same time she liked so much. I remember thinking it was weird when we first moved in together.

"All right." She gave me a quick hug before turning to shower.

I soon finished and went to my room to get to my bathroom. She cleaned it. I had left it a mess when I left, I noticed the bed though had been slept in. I waited until we were both dressed in pajamas before I asked her about it.

"When I went into my room, the duvet was all messed up." I looked at her. Color rushed to her face like I'd never seen before. She had a small smirk across her lips and her lip was bit between her teeth.

"Yeah, sorry. I hope you don't mind. I couldn't sleep the first few nights so I came in here and then it became habit and yeah..." She trailed off. "Sorry."

"No it's fine."

"I know it's weird, we don't sleep in the same bed when you're home, but in the day it was so hard to be without you. Your smell at night was comforting." She told me.

"Seriously." I pulled her close to me. "It's fine. I'm glad you found comfort in it." She laid her head on my chest as I tightened my grip around her. I'd missed this, the feeling of her in my arms, and the smell of her hair. The warmth her body gave me. "You never did answer me about how you were." I brought up. Something about her seemed different. As much as she was the same, and I couldn't put my finger on it.

"I did, I said I was better."

"Well, how were you. I know it was hard a few weeks ago when we were both so busy we literally hadn't talked the whole time.

"I was fine, I mean it was hard. But God helped me through." She said, though she seemed to have been holding something back.

"Is everything all right at work?" I pressed. She hadn't seemed all right.

"Yeah, everything is fine at the church." She sounded very defensive. "Everything is fine."
Now she was annoyed, I'd crossed a line I hadn't know existed. Then silence. "How are you?" She asked, her voice had calmed somewhat.

"Like you said, I'm so much better now." I pressed a kiss to the top of her head. "I love you." I looked down at her hand that sat next to her head. The diamonds of her ring had been moved off center.

"I love you too." Her face being pressed to my chest had made her words muffled. I felt her eye lashes flutter lightly through my shirt. Eventually they stopped moving and shut. Her breath evened out and a little wet spot developed on my shirt near her mouth.

I grabbed her in my arms, carrying her to my bed so we could sleep. There was nothing better then sleeping in my own bed with the one I love right next to me.

When I laied her down she adjusted onto her stomach. I went around getting in on the other side. I laid on my side, one of my arms slung around her back. I took a handful of shirt near her waist to hold. She moved closer to me. She felt smaller, and her skin seemed tighter around her sides, like not only had she might have lost some weight, but maybe she had toned her ab muscles. They were hard, I had to admit, it was a little disappointing. I didn't need her closer to smell her hair as it was evident she had been using my pillow while I was away. My eyes soon fell shut and we slept.

Anything was better then the bunks on the bus. And I was glad just to have Lexi by my side again. It wasn't just that I was in my own bed again that helped me sleep better then I had all tour. I think it was because I had Lexi there.

Something wasn't right with her, but I was prepared to change that. I was prepared to help her become normal again. Even though she was in my arms I still felt a part of her missing, I was still missing something. Something I was going to find.

Notes

How many of you fangirl a bit when you see i've updated????

Thanks again for reading, sorry I haven't updated in like a week. If this get's ten comments I'll update again tonight or tomorrow!!!!!


xxxxSara