Like Harry knew, my phone rang as soon as I entered the house.

"Hey!"

"Hello!" I was happy to hear his voice.

"How was your flight?"

"Good."

"That's good."

"You all right?" My one word answers must have alarmed him,

"Of course, yeah just a bit tired, spent the whole flight talking with the lady next to me, super friendly."

"Oh well why don't you go sleep and then call me when you wake?"

"All right, I love you."

"I love you too."

I dropped my phone on the floor running to the bedroom to put on my running shoes. I plugged my head phones into my ears and didn't even wait to get to the road to start my run. I could already feel I was slower. But no matter I ran, as far as could. Running the longest route I knew, not stopping for anyone. Not fans, not people I hadn't spoken to since I'd left. Not random strangers who were normally friendly. In fact i didn't even see them. I just saw the pavement in front of me.

It seemed I was only out for a little while before it got dark. It was only then that I decided to make my way home. Running home tears started falling again. Not because I was sad or stressed this time, but because I was in that much pain. The physical pain from running how ever far I ran was consuming me.

Fire ran through the veins in my legs completely engulfing them in a burn that could only feel like they were actually on fire. My arms kept pumping urging me to make it home. Each long stride pushed harder against the ground making the distance greater. My speed picked up making me wish I were dead.

The burning in my legs moved to my heart and instantly pulsing to every other part of my body.
Every muscle was feeling the regret of not moving the last two weeks.

I ignored the paps as they waited on the street just a few meters away from my door. Finally getting inside, my legs collapsed beneath me, leaving me to pass out right there. Everything had gone dark and I was just out.

What felt like seconds later I heard the door knob turn and a voice talking on a phone. Is that Eleanor? Then I was pushed away from the door as it opened.

"LEXI!" She screamed. My eyes slowly opened as I was feeling the pain even there. "LEXI! Oh my gosh, are you all right?" I slowly sat up, holding my head trying to keep it from exploding. My brain pulsed inside, making each movement more difficult then the next.

"No need to shout." I barely said. Even I was caught off guard by how quiet and raspy it was. "I guess I was just really tired when I got home."

"When did you get in?" I was up on my feet now, when I took a step toward the living room I lost my balance and fell into her, she then insisted on helping me to the couch. My body was screaming at me in pain.

"About five last night, I think." I finally answered her. She was careful and the concern in her eyes unmistakeable.

"And you just collapsed there?"

"Like I said I must have been really tired. I cried nearly the whole way home, and I guess that's what made me so tired." I tried defending my sleeping destination.

I stood and pulled and arm across my chest to stretch it out. My body was yelling at me to go to the gym. Come on, you haven't been in like years Lexi.

"Want to go to the gym with me?" I asked her before I thought about it.

"Are you sure you can, you nearly fell just trying to walk to the couch."

"Yeah it was a lite head from getting up so quickly." We both knew that was a lie, I'd never taken more time to stand up then I did then. "Come on it will be fun, maybe I can finally beat you on reps of crunches." I joked pulling a jumper over my head. Eleanor reluctantly stood, leaving the room for a few minutes before coming back in a new outfit, ready for the gym.

I drove to the one gym I barely ever went to . Only when I'd already been to the other that day and needed a bit more time on the treadmill. The drive was silent, but Eleanor kept giving me sideways glances. She would open her mouth like she was going to say something and then she'd close it before any noise came out.

"You all right?" We waited in the parking garage near the gym. The car was off so it was completely silent.

"No, that's not what should be asked. I've seen the pictures Lexi, I saw you out last night running, how long did you go for, when did you get home, and why the hell are you going to the gym. Have you seen yourself, you don't need to be here, you're all skin a bones, and you need to eat, come on, talk to me. Harry says you haven't been talking to him either. I just don't understand Lexi." It all came out like one long sentence. A tear fell from the corner of her eye as she looked at me for my answer.

"I don't know why you guys think something is wrong." I lied. "Can't I just want to be a bit more healthy by working out and stuff? God, it's like you're the paparazzi!" Our mouths hung open, I'd never used God's name in vain before, and Eleanor usually never cussed. "I mean, gosh, it's like you need to know everything about me." I rephrased, knowing calling her something like the paparazzi was a cheep shot.

"I can't believe you just said that. I'm trying to be here for you because you're wasting away. We haven't talked since the tour started and now you're in all these magazines for the rapid weight loss and you're seen all over the place running and going to gyms. Lexi, you've been seen going to three different gyms in one day. And then going for a four or five mile run later. Come on something is up."

"No, that's the thing, maybe I just want to look really good for the wedding. Maybe I want to look my best for Harry, and maybe I want to stop feeling bad about myself for looking in the mirror and hating what I see." I was yelling as the tears continues like a waterfall out of her eyes.

"But Lex you're beautiful, you were perfect the way you were, you didn't need to change, Harry would love you anyway you were." She spoke just above a whisper.

"I'm not doing it because I want to lose weight, I'm doing it because I don't want to feel lazy anymore. If I'm bored I'll go for a run. It's as simple as that." I open the door and got out, waiting for to follow so we could go in together.
I went straight to the tread mill so I could run a few miles. Eleanor didn't follow, I think she was shocked by what I had told her. I'm not sure she knew how to respond.

"Lexi." She said coming up right next to me. I pulled out a head phone so I could hear her better. "You've been running for nearly two hours can we go?" I was just short of my daily goal. And I knew she wouldn't let me go out later so I figured I should get it done now.

"Uh, yeah." I kept running. "I'm almost done, ten more minutes and then we're out." I smiled at her, trying to convince her yet again that everything was fine. She stood waiting for me for the remainder of the time.

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"I'm just worried." We were on our way home. She watched as I looked from the road to her and then back at the road. Her face was tired, her cheek was being bit from the inside, and her eyes had turned a glassy version of her usual blue. She was more then worried, she was terrified.

"I know, but there's nothing to worry about." I stated confidently. "How about we go out to lunch at that diner around the corner, the one we love." The suggestion had shocked me. I hadn't meant to suggest something in which I'd have to each greasy food. I guess part of me felt like it would convince her that I was fine and there wasn't anything to worry about.

"That sounds great." She said cautiously. "Let's shower and then go?"

"Sounds good."

We walked in like nothing had ever happened.
We were our old selves again, we smiling and laughing. As we parted way to take our showers I waited till I heard her close the bathroom door behind her. I went to my bathroom and laid down. I did about fifty consecutive crunches before deciding to get under the water to clean to sweat away from my body.

When I left my room after getting ready Eleanor was already sitting in the kitchen ready to leave.

"Ready?"

"Yup!" We locked arms deciding to walk as it had turned out not to be a bad day.

Notes

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