Soulcrusher

Niall and I had stopped talking and were at the moment just driving towards Mullingar. We both knew that either something good or something bad waited for me there. My feelings were all over the place and I didn't know how to react to all the new information. I knew Niall didn't want me to hurt, but for some reason I found myself blaming all of this on him. And to top it all off I realized that I didn't know how he felt. He could easily go around pretending to be in love with me, only to fool me into Simon's grip. It was crazy and cruel for me to think that, but on some sort of level I think I did that because I was testing him. Testing him to see if he was listening in on my thoughts.

"You know, no matter how much you stare at me I'm not going to disappear." I sighed and shook my head slowly.

"Believe it or not, but I really don't want you to disappear." A smile played on his lips, even though he tried hard to keep it away. He must have thought that I was going to get mad if he showed any happy feelings.

"I believe you." Three words and some sort of pain shot through my heart. I believe you. How can he believe me after all that I've done to him? After all the hate I felt for him?

"I am so sorry." He looked at me quickly with a confused look on his face. I swallowed back the fear and looked at his profile, and he looked at the road.

"Why are you sorry?" Anyone else would've become mad or maybe even sad, but Niall was concerned. He genuinely cared.

"Because I've been so bad towards you. I've shown you all the bad that any person can do, and I've broken you beyond repair." Feeling like I couldn't stand to look at him I turned my gaze onto the passing scenery. It was trees beyond trees, and some farming land too. Niall stayed quiet for a long time, and I didn't know why. Since I wasn't looking at him I didn't know how he reacted to what I had said.

"It's hard to believe you've hurt in your life." I furrowed my eyebrows. As if he knew I had become confused he continued. "The little damage that you've done to others is so little compared to the damage you've suffered. Simon ruined you, and you still act like hating me is crueler." I took a deep breath and as I was about to speak up a passing sign made me silent. Mullingar 4 kilometers. We were almost there. And it made me kind of freak out. I look at Niall and somehow I wanted him to make the horrible stuff go away.

"Do you know where we are meeting them?" He nodded at once and glanced at me quickly.

"I've always known." I bit my lip. Not because I was mad at him for not telling me, somehow I got over that rather quickly. I was really anxious about what I might meet when we arrived. "You shouldn't be worried." He glanced at me one more time. "Nick. The people we are meeting are the good guys. Your mother have dedicated her life to keep your future safe." I looked down at my hands and I felt the distance between my mother and I growing smaller.

"I just hope she can help me get my baby back." We stayed quiet for a long time. As we started to drive into a town Niall opened his mouth and spoke.

"You never talk about her." I glanced at him with a small smile on my lips and sighed sadly.

"It's difficult. For the last seven years I've only seen her four times. Talked to her once. And the time I talked to her wasn't exactly by the book. I kind of sneaked into the house she was living in." I smiled largely as Niall continued to drive towards our destination. "She somehow knew who I was. She was six at the time. She turned seven two months ago." I nodded my head and bit my lip as I thought about that time. We talked for two hours before anyone figured out what I was doing.

"Her name was Melody right?"

"It still is." I smiled and looked at him. He quickly flipped me off before he turned onto a smaller street. I looked around and realized I had been here before. It wasn't a clear memory but it was all very familiar to me. "We're here." I didn't have to look at Niall to know he was nodding his head. Just a few seconds later he parked the car just outside a also familiar house. He turned off the car and got out without saying a word. I simply took a deep breath before opening the door and walking to the trunk where he was fetching our bags.

"We better take it all inside. We're might be staying here for a while." With a nod I agreed with him and grabbed my bag. He closed the trunk and began walking towards the house and I followed him. Just as we came up to the house I got a strange feeling. It felt like I had run into something that was very close to home. There was a shield around the house.

"Is that him?" I asked Niall. He simply shrugged and walked towards the door. As he knocked all I could think about was how amazing and weird this felt. It took only seconds before someone opened the door and before me stood a woman I had once called my mother. She greeted Niall first, she looked at him like he was a lost son that had finally returned from war. But when her eyes reach me she couldn't hold back those tears that had been threatening to fall. She quickly pulled me into a hug and held onto me for dear life. When we had been hugging for about five minutes she let me go only to lean back and stare at me for another minute. I have to admit I was crying to.

"So beautiful." Was the only words she uttered as she pulled me inside of her home. Niall closed the door behind us and I was pulled into another bone crushing hug from my mother.

Notes

Slow updates... It's almost disgusting xD

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