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Soulcrusher

Love does fuck things up

“Call me when ever. I’ll come running.” Frida smiled and looked into my eyes. It almost looked romantic, but it wasn’t. She was sad to see me go, and to see Niall go. I nodded to her request and looked at Niall quickly. He nodded and started the car.

“Be safe Nick. And you too Niall.” Casp snaked his arm around Frida’s waist and she stood up straight. I smiled towards the both of them, but it wasn’t a genuine smile. I was scared to death of what was going to happen.

“Bye guys.” Niall spoke and then began driving away. I faintly remember waving to the couple next to the car, but no words left my mouth. Niall must’ve understood that I couldn’t say good bye. I couldn’t say good bye because it felt like signing a death sentence. Last night we had agreed on first going to Niall’s home. We knew that it would be risky because Simon might be waiting for us, but my mother and I had been there when I was a kid. And I had a gut feeling there was some kind of lead there. So Niall drove towards Ireland, towards Mullingar.

I always loved driving through the country side in England. Everything was green and so real, a long step away from cities. Those long roads and miles and miles of nothing but fields and mountains. It was all just beautiful. We had been driving for an hour when either of us spoke again.

“Do you really think your mother left a clue for you in Mullingar?” I shrugged and looked over at Niall.

“I hope so anyways.” He nodded and I suppressed a sigh. My heart raced when I thought about my little girl, and it raced even more when I thought about the hopelessness of it all. I began thinking off all the conversations Niall and I had shared and I realized he never explained how my mother had contacted him recently. She was dead, so there was no logical explanation for it. “Niall.” He glanced only shortly at me before returning his stare onto the road.

“Yeah.” He bit his lower lip as if he knew what I was going to ask. But I knew that he didn’t read my mind, I trusted him enough to know that.

“We never talked about my mother again.” He slowly shook his head and scratched his eyebrow. It looked like he knew something that he was trying to figure out how to tell me. “You told me she contacted you recently?” It wasn’t a statement. I was so unsure that I had heard him correctly the first time. So I wanted him to confirm it again.

“I did say that.” He sounded very cryptic.

“Niall. How did my mother contact you?” He took a deep breath and stayed silent for a long time. He looked in the review mirror a couple of times before speaking.

“All those years ago she told me to look out for a girl with the name Nick. But that the name wasn’t her real name.” I nodded.

“You told me that already.” He nodded and thought about his next words.

“She told me this person was important, not only to her, but to me and the world. Kathrine talked like she knew about every tragedy that was going to come your way. She knew what was going to happen with Simon. She even knew what was going to happen between you and me.” I took a deep breath and began bitching at Niall.

“So you seriously knew about everything between us before it even happened? Are you fucking serious? You’re such a fucking dick.” I turned my head away from him, but somehow I could still see his god awful smirk.

“I didn’t know. I didn’t know about anything that was going to happen between us. She only told me about the things that I couldn’t change. Like Simon. I knew about Simon, not in detail but still.” I couldn’t believe my mother had known about what that man would do to me, and still leave me with him.

“Nick.” His voice was soft as he slowly slowed the car down and stopped on the side of the road. “She knew that no matter how much she tried to fight him, he would still get to you.” I didn’t understand what he meant, and my heart broke when he spoke those next few words. “You were running from him Georgie.” I let out a sob and covered my mouth with my hand. All this time I thought my mother had left me with that man. But one thing didn’t fit. She told me I was supposed to be with him.

“You’re wrong. She told me I was supposed to go with him. She told me I was safe with him.” Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I spoke. My words came out broken and I tried to fit all the pieces together. I couldn’t understand, I didn’t want to understand. Niall’s hand grabbed the one I had laying in my lap and he pulled it towards himself. He kissed the back of it and held it to his heart.

“No matter what Simon would’ve gotten to you. And no matter what he would’ve gotten you pregnant. She tried to make sure it happened in a way that made you feel safe.” I almost laughed him in the face but the tears wouldn’t stop. I wanted so desperately to hate her, or Simon, or even Niall, but I couldn’t. If what Niall was telling me really was the truth, then Simon would’ve gotten to me.

“But how did she tell you about us? And when?” I decided to try and forget about Simon for now.

“She wrote me a letter.” Somehow I had imagined the answer a little bit more dramatic. Maybe that she had recorded herself fifteen years ago and then sent it to him now. But no, it was a letter.

“Oh.” That was all I could answer. He stayed quiet for a long time looking at me, expecting a reaction. “Well…” I shrugged and looked at him with teary eyes and indifferent eyes. “What did it say?” He once again bit his bottom lip and looked at me with worried eyes.

“Before I tell you what was in the letter…” He paused and looked at a car that was passing. When it was gone he spoke again. “The letter was dated a few weeks ago.” I stared at him confused.

“Georgie, your mother isn’t dead.” I gasped. This couldn’t be real.

Notes

Updating! It's a short chapter but I didn't know how to fit anymore in this one ^^

Please tell me what you think!

Oh and when I updated the last chapter I was totally bummed out because I couldn't go see 5SOS... BUT! In November I am going to Stockholm with a very close friend of mine, and we are going to see Ed Sheeran!! WOOO! I'm so excited! I'm a huge fan of his! :D

LOVE

Comments

o.m.g you're going to his concert? I'm so jealous!! i love his songs he sure knows how to use his words

@ThatCrazyMofo agreed :)xx

Updaaaaaaaaaate, please!xx

ThatCrazyMofo ThatCrazyMofo
4/17/14

@crushingonniall
I'm hoping for her sake that it was in Stockholm :P Because other parts of Sweden aren't that fun ^^

@thelovelyreader
well,i don't exactly know but it was a family vacation they had5 people and they got a tour or something then they went to a museum shit idk but she said it was fun:)x