Forever Or For Never

Niall's POV
My phone rings, I answer automatically thinking its Jordan. But its not.. Its the last fucking person I want to talk to.

''hey Niall.''I hear her say.
''I told you Ellie, stop calling me.I don't have the time to waste on you.''I say coldly.
''We can make it happen Niall, i believe it..''She assures me.
''Well I don't. You caused me to lost my kids, El,I'm sorry...but I can't talk to you again.''I hang up and throw the phone on the couch as I stand up.

Like I have been doing for a few weeks, I go upstairs and stand in Jenna's room. Fuck. My baby's gone. Fuck me. Fuck my life. Fuck the fucking world.

''I miss you cupcakes.''I say as I pick up the picture on her nightstand,Its of her and Dawson from the day he was born.

My son's going to want to be like me someday. But to be honest..I don't want him to be like me. He doesn't need to be stupid, an idiot and a screw up. He needs to be like Jordan.. Independent, sweet, caring, calm..

I have just realized...starting over is hurts..like a fucking bitch.

Notes

I will update soon! comment or im stopping like last time!