Louis' POV

Harry turns around and I quickly wipe my face rubbing my eyes so that they don't look how bad they are right now.


"What are you doing here? It's midnight" Harry is as surprised as me.

"Don't tell me you don't know! Right louis?" Ed winks at me. What?

"What? Don't look so surprised! I guess you've already wished him and he was so happy that you cried!" He chuckles at the end punching Harry in the stomach lightly.

Well I cried but I don't even have a single idea what's happening here. I look at Harry for
confirmation and I don't even know what his facial expressions says.

"You guys...." He laughs. "You act so bad"
He walks over to harry and hugs him and Harry hugs him back.

"What is it mate?" Harry asks.

"Happy birthday dork! You're 22" Ed's hold on Harry tightens and Harry squeezes in return.

Shit. Shit shit shit shit shit fuck!

It's first Feb. Fuck fuck fuck. My hands reach my hair and pulls at the roots. Fuck!
Ed pulls away, "you guys come out everybody's waiting!" Ed pats my arms lightly and walks out.

Everybody? Whose everybody?

This is so awkward. It's his birthday tonight and what was I going to fucking do? Fucking what would have happened if I'd told him. I'd then be on the floor crying. That's it. How could have I forgot about today!

I look at Harry. I'm so ashamed. I don't even deserve to look at him. I revert my eyes away. I don't want to look at him because the heat rising in my body make my skin burn already and I don't want to face his burning stare on me.

"It's OK if you don't want to join but I wouldn't want to disappoint them" he shrugs smiling weakly. I totally understand. Fuck me.

"No.." I breath in. "No. No I'd like to join" I walk over to him standing a few feet away but he steps in taking my hands in his.

"That's good" he pecks me on the lips. "I just want you to know that.." He looks at me like he's making a promise. A soft promise. "If you ever want to talk, ever just anything I'll always be there. I wouldn't be mad at you ever so just don't ever hesitate. I'll be there" he's rubbing circles in my palm. Shit. I disappointed him and now he thinks I don't trust him. Why am I like this?
Why?

"I'm sorry" my head hangs low.

"No.." He pulls me in catching me off guard. I hug him slowly. My hands wrap around his chest. He kisses my head and rests his chin there. What if I could just stay like this forever?

He's so soft and cuddly.

I feel like he's my baymax. He is my baymax. Of course he's my baymax.

"Happy birthday Haymax" I wish him squeezing his body a little but he chuckles in return.

"Haymax?" He looks down at me pulling me a little away smiling bright.

"Haymax, yes. You're my baymax. H for harry" I hug him back.

"Guys hurryyyy upp!!" I hear niall from the hall. "Move your asses here"

We chuckle at his comment and Harry rubs my back deep breathing. Of course he's breathing in my scent.

Everybody was there. And everybody includes Ed, niall, Liam, zayn and gems ofcourse.

What would you expect on a birthday night? It was loud. The music, the gossip, the laughter, the celebrations. Everything. But not things going inside my head. It was hurting. Everything was so loud but yet I could hear my thoughts over it. No matter how many times I thought about walking out of the hall to a secluded place I was called back. Not that I wanted to ruin Harry's b'day party. But just because my head couldn't take in anymore. And as for Harry I saw him glancing at me worried after every 5 minutes. He even wanted to talk to me but somehow he would stop because I disappointed him a lot before and I don't know if he needs to know this today. Today when he turns 22.

Niall gifted Harry a tie saying that he knew he didn't wear any of those but he said he soon will have to. He has news to announce. Zayn gifted him a painting from his new collection from the exhibition. We haven't seen what's in it yet. And as for Liam he got two front row tickets for the tennis match for him. Gems bought him leather boots.

"I had to take an advance payment check for these so you better like it" was what she said before handing the box to harry. And when it was opened a pair of boots, YSL boots peeked out and Harry couldn't have freaked out more. It was real happiness. He hugged her so tight, she was visibly squeezed.

I gifted him a watch. A US Polo watch. Everybody was staring at me like I was the only one in the room and it got me nervous. Harry took it. Opened it and he liked it. "You didn't have to" is what he said to me.

"You didn't say that to anybody else" I frown and he frowned too "So you're welcome" was my reply. More than half of my salary was gone to bail out Calvin and then the rest of it I spent on buying him the gift.

As he was about to keep the watch back in the case the chit of paper fell which I purposely kept there with some lines written on it. Harry picked it up and kept it in his pocket as he looked me in the eyes.

And then there was a knock at the door which startled all of us but everybody remained in thier places except me. Niall was like not my doorbell not my problem, zayn was busy guessing images that formed from the smoke he puffed out before it vanished into the air, Liam was busy on his phone arguing with don't know who. And as for Harry he was peeking into the beer bottle with one eye. My god I was the only decent one here. For the first time of course.

I twist the knob open and a familiar lady in her night dress standing there like she's annoyed or pissed i don't know something of that sort. Oh no, why is she here?

"Mind lowering the volume? I have a daughter who is trying to finish her project." She huffs keeping her hands on her waist. "And you guys are not at all helping" she presses two of her fingers to her forehead.

"Who is it Louehh...?" all of a sudden I feel hot breath on my neck and I turn around on my heel and there's Harry standing jiggling in his place his eyes droopy. He walks closer resting his chin on my shoulder from behind me. His breath as strong beer smell, hitting me at my neck.

"Why are you guys drunk?" She sounds confused. Anyway I don't need a reason to be drunk but I can't drink so.. She steps in, her eyes wandering off at the mess we've created in between our celebrations.

"I don't drink" I say proud while her search continues. I should be.

"I'm sure you wish you'd be too" Harry slurred his chin digging at my shoulder when he giggles burying his face in my neck afterwards and all I do is stand dead in my place at this contact when his hands wrap around from behind my waist. I can feel his stomach at the small of my back. Holy shit.

And somehow ms Laura is more interested in niall because she is walking towards him and niall is now standing up looking at her with confusion and a look that says 'why is she here' or
'she wasn't the part of my plan'

But my mind wanders off to the new years party where I found them snogging. Oh yes I found the connection.

"You can't be he-re" its like he's lying to her. He did not drink much but he did have a beer or two.

"What are you doing here?" She cocks her head to the side.

He exhales deeply, "its Harry's bday" he looks around. I wish I could just vanish away from here with Harry because i feel his tongue tickling me under my ear and its more than overwhelming.

"Happy birthday Harry" she turns around looking at him where he stands holding me from behind, his head buried in my neck. He shakes his head mumbling on my skin.

"Thanks" he mouths his breath hitting me at the wet spot which I'm sure of will be sore.
"You're supposed to leave" niall is trying say it low above the music but he knows that's not possible. What is he even trying to do? She could have some cake then go.

"Okay i'll leave but I need to talk to you about something" she's got her hand on his waist now. Wow.

He's sucking, even biting at my skin when there's everybody in the room. This is something I always wanted or will ever want to do, privately. "Harreh?!" I whisper pulling away but his hold grabs my waist tightly and his sucking becomes hard on the spot.

"I guess you guys should find a room!!" Zayn yells from the couch puffing out smoke.

"Shut up!" Harry yells back, taking a second pause, over the music hoping he'd have heard him.

"Harry stop" I remove his hands and he lets me but he holds my wrist.

"Let's go to our room" he slurs his eyes deep dark green looking at me like he'd eat me alive, in a romantic way of course. He turns around to face the hallway and pulls me my feet dragging.

"Harry wait" I had to shout unwrapping his fingers around my wrist.

"What?" His piercing eyes wanting answers, "you're ashamed?" He turns around from where he's standing to look at me and pouts his head tilting sideways.

"No!" What? No why would I be ashamed. "No Harry no. It's just we can't go in there" we just can't leave when everybody's here for the party. We just can't leave and make out,"not right now"

"Let's go then. What's the harm?" He talks slow.

"Harry!" He's pulling me to the room again. We're halfway through the hallway already. "Harry just let them leave and then we'll..." I gulp in.

"You want them to leave?" Harry walks closer to me his voice stronger and stern "You want them to go. So they'll go" Harry leaves my arm and walks to the center of the hall clapping his hands loudly and gains everybody's attention.

"You" he points at niall ".....and you" at Ms laura "and you and you" he pauses to stable himself a little pointing at zayn and liam. He's drunk but he will control himself. "Need to leave"

"That's not happening mate" zayn is first one to speak.

Niall speaks up next, "I can't leave, I need to tell you guys something" he will like have a breath stroke in a moment. His face is glossy maybe because he's sweating. "Plz why don't you just go. I promise I'll get to you soon. Very soon" niall takes ms Laura's hands in his. " I promise" she nods and sighs loudly walking backwards.

"OK i'll leave. I'm leaving anyway just make sure the noise comes down. It's one and we need to sleep like good people" she's near the door and walks out shutting the door behind her.

"What did she mean? We're not good people?" He pouts looking at me. Oh my. Why is he so cute when he's drunk? Anyway. He needs his nap now.

"You guys?" Harry stumbles a little looking at other three guys " leave now" he snorts his fingers combing his hair.

"Whose going ring shopping with me?" Niall asks with. So much excitement in his voice. I knew godamn it.

"What, right now?" Zayn giggles.

"Silly all the shops are shut" Harry informs.
Are these guys really drunk or am I just having a first hand look at their foolishness hidden inside them. Dumb men.

"I'll go" Liam answers back. "Aww niall you can't buy a ring for me, with me" Liam laughs hysterical. What the fuck is wrong with these guys? They've had too much. I walk towards the boom box to lower the volume down before anybody else turns up at the door.

"I'm proposing to Ms Laura, tomorrow!" niall announces bringing his fist to his lips. "its final"

"Seriously?" Harry speaks slowly, his eyes wide, though it should've been faster. He looks at him with half hooded eyes excitement clear in his voice "Never knew you'll be the first one to get married in the squad" he plops himself on the couch resting his head back. I sit beside him my palm resting on his thighs.

"Aren't you guys happy?" Nialls' face falls. "You guys are like not even reacting"

"We're very happy niall" zayn and Liam say it at once. "Seriously way to go mate. So excited" zayn continues.

"What about you Louis?" He turns to me " not happy about it?"

"I kind of expected it so yeah not really surprised but I'm too happy. Very happy indeed"

"Thanks" he smiles showing his teeth.

"Wait! she has a daughter right?"

"Yeah. She's divorced" he nods his smile not faltering.

Notes

if only this site didn't crash i would've already posted this chapter long time back.
well anyway here it is!! im gonna do a double update! this is the first part!

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