LOST AND STILL FINDING(larry stylinson)

Louis' p.o.v

Neither niall, liam or zayn for that matter could be visible to me. Just some drunk bodies around me dancing. I felt a little alone again wishing harry was here with me. I don't know. It was all getting so weird for me. I walk out of the crowd and find myself a seat at the counter ordering some fresh cherry and lemon juice for me while I sat there gaining my breath back.

Wonder what harry must be doing. The lady gave me my drink and I began to play with the lemon which was stuck on the top.

"No drink for the handsome guy?" I hear a blonde say to me as I looked up at her.

"Me?" I ask her to confirm if she was really talking to me.

"Yeah, you. What would you like?" She takes a seat beside me on the counter.

"Ohh.. Nothing thank you. I'm fine with juice"I tell her and then look around. She isn't the one from the crowd I just met. She's from maybe a different group of people.

"Oh, but you should at least take one!" She asks me again.

"No thank you. I said I'm fine" I think I'm getting a bit irritated.

"No I insist. At least one drink!" She orders some crap vine for me, I know I'm not taking it she's just wasting her time. I won't drink.

"Sorry miss. But I shouldn't be drinking, I have to drive home" I lie n try to give her a more genuine reason and I hope she understands. Anyway she doesn't deserve to know why am I not drinking.

"Its okay, you haven't had any and anyway who drives home on a new year?" The lady had got my drink and I just let it be there. I don't want to drink. Why the hell is she even forcing me? I don't even know her first of all and why does she want me tipsy. Urgh she's killing me man. If she doesn't stop now, I don't care if I punched her.

I look around if I could find somebody known who could help me out. But its just people dancing all over the loud music.

"Sorry miss I'm not drinking " I say again as I slide the glass back to her.

"I insist please" she's getting on my nerves. Why doesn't she understand this bit.

"Cmon u should, the lady pleads!" A manly voice from my behind says as a tall man comes into view wearing a tee as transparent as it could be and a black blazer on it his hair spiked up, nose pointed and his voice was a bit squeeky.

"No I am not drinking, and if u by chance know her please take her away before I punch her!" I say to the man.

"Hey! Hey! Cool down mister. If u don't want to drink u won't drink..its your choice its new year!" He says in defense his hand patting my shoulder.

"Cmon baby, I'll be back in a second. Nora wanted to see you" the man says to the girl before he kisses her on the cheek and she walks away giving me one of her seducing looks she kept on while forcing me to drink.

"Hey man don't bother, she was just trying" he apologizes on behalf of her. At least he sent him away.

"Thanx man" I smile and he gives me a bro hug our shoulders tapping together.

"BTW I'm Nick, Nick grimshaw" What? Hes that RJ? That RJ I listen on the radio. Wtf how could I not
recognize.

"Oh my! Seriously?" I am in serious doubt. His real voice is so much more different than the real one.

"Yeah " he nods as he doesn't seem surprised.

"Your voice is so different!" Though I don't seem to like him in the first impression nor do I like him now, but its weird I'm talking to him but let it be. He kind of gives me those negative vibes. I don't feel nice.

"Like in a good way or a bad way different?" He half laughs. He has something else going on in his mind.

"In a good way of course " I laugh it off as I lie. His voice is definitely worse than on the radio.

Wait. What. Harry just had a meeting with him last week.

"Do you somehow know harry styles? U ppl had a meeting last week I suppose"

"Oh ofcrse. Who wouldn't know harry styles?" His eyes beam and his voice is automatically loud over powering the music which is thumping the eardrums out of my ears.


"Oh" is all I say after making him so excited about it.

"How do you know harry styles?" He looks at me up and down, like judging what I was wearing and then comparing me to harry styles. Typical of what a rich ass kid would do.

But I had an interesting answer for him.

"I live with him actually. We met last month!" I tell him completely in attitude. I don't know why but I think we're behaving more like two rich girls in ego.

"Are u guys dating?" His eyes might just pop out as he takes a sip of his drink.

"No, not going far with that right now, how have you been knowing him?" I try not to tell him actually that we've kissed and I don't even know if were dating or something. We haven't discussed anything.


"I've known him since he was 6! He's a very kind and a nice lad" he compliments and I smile. Why the hell am I smiling? Ohh coz I kissed him for that dimple on his cheeks.

"I know. I know. It was all unexpected for me too be sharing his house"

"Yeah for me too u know to know the guy I meet shares his house" I feel so sick talking to him. If he stays here I don't know if I'll be able to keep a conversation with him any longer.


"How come you're living with him?" Could u please keep ur long pointed nose with you? My head literally says

"I actually shifted here last month and ended up at his apartment."

"That's such a big coincidence" he takes another sip. I guess my knuckles have turned white coz of holding my juice glass for too long and too tight.

Where is harry? Why couldn't he just land up here? Or maybe I could call him? Or maybe I just could go back home and spend the time left with him? Or maybe he could just land up here and take me home? But he's a sleepy ass bitch still in bed.

"Yeah!" I nod back. I don't know what else to do. My juice is also done and my stomach does not have the capacity to have the 4th glass.

"Louis!" I hear a familiar voice call me over the loud music but I'm not able to recognize it. At least I will be saved from this shitty nick here.

I turn around on my rotating stool to see it's liam approaching me with a scotch bottle in his hand.

"What have you been doing here? We've been searching you on the dance floor?!!!!" He shouts over the pounding music.

"Got a little bit tired!" I say into his ear. I guess he hasn't noticed nick till now.

"Hey liam!! U never told me u were gonna be here!" He gestures him for a handshake. But liam looks at him through narrow eyes, "hey nick!" He says through gritted teeth,"I thought you would be busy poking your nose everywhere!" He mocks him but nicks face instead of turning into a ball of shit he laughs, "oooohh yeah!" He Gives him a high five before they hug each other.

Oh my! Are they close friends or something ? I don't know bit I would surely love to bitch about him sometime!

Liam turns back to me,"let's go, we have the games going on over that side!"

"Okay!" I agree immediately as I jump onto my toes from the stool and follow liam through the crazy crowd.

"How do you know nick?" Liam's turns to me immediately. There's some worry expression on his face!

"No I don't know him we just met on the counter, nor would I want to! He's just another dickhead, so annoying just like his nose!" I tell him mocking nick off. He totally spoilt my mood.

"I know right! He is so stupid and bloody dumb!" He says and the way he said that after turning back around, it makes me laugh coz the mocking off he did a while ago was true. He hates him. I can now bitch about him!

"I thought you guys were best friends?" I ask him jogging off to his side as we walk through a narrow corridor.

"Best friends on face dude! He literally sucks! And you're not saying this to anybody here..you don't trust anybody when you're in a bar, okay?" He asks me to do so and I kind of promise him. I guess I'm good with secrets! I hope so. Anyway I'm not gonna get drunk so its not a big deal.

The moment we exit the narrow corridor, a huge space with golden lighting, couches with high back rests, diamond studded cieling. It all looked royal.

Talking about people, there were more strippers than real humans. Two of the strippers walked into there bikinied and took away liam, before the other two could walk up to me I go and sit beside niall, who seem to be making out with..o my ! With Mrs Collins I guess?

Yeah! ItS her the whore, Mrs laura Collins our irritating neighbor! Our? I mean harry and mine? Yeah its our.

I tap on Niall's shoulder and he seems to be pleased to find me tapping his shoulder.

"Join us with a drink c'mon! " he shouts over the loud music his lips all smudged with I guess laura's lipstick!

"Nope! U know I won't be drinking!" I remind him."BTW when did you two start dating? U never told me" I ask him in surprised. I'm so glad I didn't bitch about her in front of him ever. "Its been over n year buddy! We work in the same office to be precise" he winks


"Oh anyway harry has been calling you, ur not picking up so he was worried. He called me up and told me to ask u to call him as soon as possible" what? Harry? Calling me coz he was worried? Maybe he was but why?

"Okay thank but I hope you haven't told anybody about the thing u caught up in the morning ?" I ask him to make it sure my insides pleading.

"What thing?" He seems confused all drunk. He might've gulped it down with the drinks.


"In the morning when u arrived at our home!" I almost say it in a whisper but loud enough for him to hear in the loud music.

"Ohhhh" he smirks at me loudly.

"Shhhhh plz don't say it anybody right now" I plead to him.

"Ofcouse..not now at least!" He chuckles.

"OK I'll leave now,I got some work" probably my work is to call harry.

"No, at least wait till the countdown" he says to me as his mouth smells of vodka.

"Noo, that can't! Plz tell liam n zayn.too" I plead as I get from the couch to leave.

"But how will you go? U came by zayn anyway!" He reminds me standing up leaving g drunk laura on the couch as she slides sideways dropping on another stripper beside her.

"Don't worry I'll manage" I say him squeezing his shoulder



"Seriously? U sure? Ask zayn he'll drop you"

"No don't worry I'll call harry" I spit almost not knowing what I said but now I do.

"He'll dfntly not pick you up, his ass would probably be stuck to his bed!" He laughs sympathetically.

"I will manage somehow, u enjoy" I rush out of the crowd as fast as I could so that I don't walk into somebody else who stops me again.

I almost jog out trying not to trip on my own feet and this I seriously don't trip but rather I blindly run into somebody. Somebody who smells like harry and is tall as harry and is dressed up as harry and is wearing a black n white shirt with leaf petals on them half unbuttoned showing off his cleavage and the butterfly tattoo and the cross locket hanging down from the neck and the golden brown locks falling on his shoulder. C'mon Louis look up at his face. Who is it? He totally looks like harry. Harry styles my Richie rich. Definitely he's some clone of his.

My subconscious is back hitting me on my ass saying get back into your senses its fucking harry styles with whom you were making out in the morning. Fucking look at him.
Oh my somebody pinch me please. Is it seriously harry who just landed up here all dressed up sexily inside a pub, who somehow hates these kind of parties to the core.

"Louis!what has happened to you are you drunk?" Harry literally shouts into my ears making me come back into my senses.

"For gods sake stand straight at least!" He shouts again. Why? Am I leaning on him.

Oh yes dfntly says my subconscious tapping his feet on the floor.

"Louis why did you drink.. U know you were not supposed to!" He screams literally shaking me by my shoulders. Whoop. Finally I got a hold of the reality.

"Oh my god harry you came?" I say out of breath from all the jogging I did. "Will you please shut up and come with me" he turns around grabbing my wrist tightly and begins to pull me through the mad crowd. "But how did you know we were here??" I scream over the music. "They always party here.. Its kind of there pet pub" he screams back but not turning around walking through the narrow empty corridor.

"And please let's go back..when ur already here let's go enjoy new year and you look hot BTW!" I smirk. Oh my god. This is the juice speaking not me.

"Shut up!" I hear him say but I guess he's smiling.

Suddenly through the narrow corridor which is almost empty he pulls me in front of him pinning me to the cushioned wall his hands tightly holding one of my wrists and the other one holding me by my cheeks

"Why did you do this to me?" He says looking down at me and Im looking up at him as he gently cups my cheek. "I didn't do--" I begin but he shuts me off by placing his index finger on my lips.



Is he drunk? Don't tell me he turned up here coz he is drunk. His index finger traces my lower lip making my lips part a little. What the fuck is he doing. Oh god don't let him turn me on. " what do you think you did when you left me there that too miserable on a new year night?" He grinds his teeth lowering down on me a little bit near my ear so that I could listen him over the loud music.

"How do I make you miserable?" I whisper into his ears coming up on my tippy toes. Seriously I don't understand. He actually did that to me when he didn't join me here. He didn't come up to the party with me leaving me alone here. How do you think I felt? There anger boiling inside me.

"You left me alone, that too asleep. You fucking didn't let me even k--" he deep breaths before finishing his sentence. I bring my free hand up to his chest to push him away from me. Though he was really muscular.

"What the hell. Why are you doing this to me?" He says as his eyebrows crease up.

"Don't talk to me. You're so impossible. It would've been better if you didn't turn up here and ruin the rest of this..." I spit these words on his face as I rush out the corridor to the open space directly out of the pub. Finally my ears get some rest from the pounding and thumbing music. I don't stop to him calling me a million times before.

I dont know where to run away. I dont even have my car.

I don't even care what's happening with me or to me right now. There was a moment few minutes ago where I wished I spent time with harry. Fucking, every second with him. I somehow wished he would land up here and I would enjoy with him my whole night. And when now he does hes blaming me I left him miserable without informing him. And I didn't inform him cz I thought he was asleep, damn he was, and I wouldn't disturb him like that. I was considerate about him. I fucking cared and what he does here is blame me for leaving me? Fuck shit he wasn't even coming here so why would I even ask him? Oh my god, why is he even blaming me??

"I'll walk then" OK so its cold and I try to wrap myself with my arms but that is not possible as I walk out of the pub area and I see Harry's car parked near zayn's car. May be that is why he knew we were here.

I don't know what to do. It's been only a few seconds after he touched me like that, all turning me on.



I turn sideways towards the parking lot jogging myself to the lambo parked. I walk and lean onto it and I'm startled by the sudden sound it makes, a beep, like someone unlocked the car. I look around and I see harry walking fast towards me smirking with the car keys in his hand. I pull the door handles as the door goes up and I climb in the car and seat myself in the passenger seat waiting for harry.

I'm totally annoyed but Im still going home with him. I want to scream at him for not letting me enjoy the party with him and its almost 10:30 here doing nothing.

He is so annoying. I seriously want to beat him up. I hear the door opening and he seats himself in and I can hear his rough breaths as he is panting weirdly.

"What's the ....matter, why did yy-ou just run away like ..t-that?" He says still panting. And I guess there's a little pain in his chest that just rose as he lays down his head on the steering wheel trying to take in deep breaths as he rubs his chest.

"What's the matter? Are u okay?" I shift on my seat nearer to him my hand rubbing his back.

He doesn't reply, he's just heavily breathing.

"Harry please answer, are you okay??" He raises his head up and leans back at the seat head rest his eyes squeezed.

He coughs a little and then starts to smile as he opens his eyes and turns his head towards me.

"How do you...manage do hav-ve so many emotions all at once?" He's tryna take deep breaths His words melt me inside but I manage to bring back my stubborn look.

"I don't care, I thought you were going to vomit in the car and that why I was worried!" I tell him and turn around to look out of the window crossing my arms tightly across my chest.

"Please" he says annoyingly."you cant deny me, please" he pulls me by my upper arm closer to him.

"I can't or I shouldn't?" I turn to him my right eyebrow raised up. "you shouldn't then " He says as he turns on the ignition of the car and takes the car out of the parking area.

"Is it now a right of yours to stop me anytime or is it duty or something like that??" "I never said that...but "

"What? You already said what you had to harry!!" I say a bit loud. Totally aggressive.

"Baby, what is wrong u seem disturbed" his eyebrows crinkle He calling me baby? He's totally drunk.

"You said I left you miserable? Howcome that's even possible. I had my total right to join the party and u had ur total right not to. Then why do u say that?" I look at him while he's driving

"I thought u wouldn't go tonight and then we would--" he stops in completing the sentence.

"What would we do? What do you mean?''

"I mean we could totalyy enjoy our 1st new year together and I wanted u to stay!" The last bit comes out as a whisper as he starts to take rough breaths again. There's seriously something wrong with him. He's not looking at me in the eye and by his facial expressions I can say he's going through a lot of pain. Like physical pain.

My heart just takes a leap when those words exit his mouth.

"You wanted me to stay? But for what? U never even tried to stop me from attending and you anyway said u wouldn't going attend!"

"But I thought i- thought u would know!" He looks down and concentrates on the road again.

"U told me you had plans! And how am I even supposed to know when u didn't ask me to harry? Seriously man cmon look up?" I reach my hand out to his hand holding it. His skin is right now like so warm not warm its hot.

"Why is your skin burning ?" I ask him cz that worried me seriously. Cz its like almost time to snow outside and its still cold inside the car and harry warm?

"I just had an asthma fitt thats it"he informs me looking up taking a deep breath to calm himself down.

"What?" An asthma fitt, and I didn't even get to know he was in pain, like he didn't tell me I knew he was in pain I could see that but I thought maybe that was something

"Are you serious??!!" I continue totally in surprise n shock he didn't tell me he was in pain. That is why he had a chest pain

"Its OK..it was just an attack!" He says

"Just an attack? Don't you fuckin say that, I just thought you were about to vomit and then you would just choke to death?" My eyes widen and I'm so worried about him and he doesn't even think about telling me

"Its normal seriously you don't have to worry, I just didn't have my pump!"

"Where is it, ur pump?"

"On the night stand" he speeds up the lambo and we turn to a new road, a new highway. But why.

"Harry are u drunk? You're supposed to keep it with you and where are you taking me? You've taken the wrong road!".

"Its totally fine, you need to calm down Lou" he holds my hand tighter making me realize it was okay. Everything was okay. If maybe I could've asked for something else today, maybe that could have been true. I just had a thought about him being with me at the party and then he came to the party. It was like right now it is only him that I need with me.

It was silent somehow. The little to nowhere was all in comfortable silence. Him holding my hand and drawing circles with his thumb on my palm, while driving to somewhere. It all seemed like a little typical romantic movie. And as far as the truth goes I've never liked such movies. It all seems like some sick thing they might be doing. But right now it seemed so much soothing and comforting though I was really really worried about harry. Like he seems so weak to me.


"Are you okay?" Harry distracts me

"Yeah! Why?" I turn towards him. "You seem not to ask me questions about where we're heading to?" He smiles with a little smirk

"Its fine I'll see wen we reach" I say not looking at him as we drive faster through a load of huge farms. Maybe were going out of the city or to his farmhouse.

Notes

Really so soryyy!! I know not an excuse! But these exams keep me occupied and there was some work pending last month and I was so busy. Just 10 more days and there will be loads of updates coming up regularly!! Just keep voting , commenting and subscribing! Do comment if u liking it. Plz!