LOST AND STILL FINDING(larry stylinson)

Louis' p.o.v

I myself did not know I was allergic to all such stuff. My bad. There's no way harry is to blame. Or anybody else for that matter. Lying in my bed forcefully ordered by harry to stay. I literally wanted to go out in the snow and enjoy Christmas. But somehow every minute Harry peeped in asking me if I needed something or not. Or if I was fine. Or if I slept. Anything random.

A 100th knock on my door since I've been discharged and harry peeps in, "hey loui-" this time before he could ask me the same question I cut him off, "why don't you just sit here and stare and check if I'm not following ur orders or if I need something or if im peeing or if im still breathing?"
I say as he still peeped in and his face now had an expression of embarrassment. He stepped inside, "sorry" he mutters.

I lift myself up and rest myself on the backrest while the sheets remained covering me up. "Cmon sit here" I pat to the space beside me. He travels around the bed and climbs up the bed and comes and sits beside me his head hanging low.

"why are you ashamed?" I ask because I could see that frown on his face

"For doing all that. I'm really sorry for ruining every single thing" He apologized.

"But that's just fine harry you know I never knew I was allergic to vine. Like its really weird but I don't know why that happened" I end it with a shrug.


"But I should've been more careful" he says in a low tone still not looking at me and picking something on his fingers.

"This is really dumb harry. How could you even know? I did not know it myself. Just stop blaming yourself now." I tell him.

He looks up at me," but just take my apology,it'll make me feel better" his lips move slowly.

"You already know I only take revenge" I chuckle which in return bought a dimple on his face and I was greatful he actually smiled at last.

"you can take it anytime. But you know this thing...your allergy thing, I've heard it for the first time and its like really wierd and i didn't know that somebody could be allergic to a vine" he says with that dimpled smile still stuck and he ended up laughing.

"Harry!!.. Stop dat" I folded my arms. "Anyway..its gr8 to see u fine" his laughter faded and a simple yet adorable smile on his face which made me remember the Greek god once again. I nod and in another second we were distracted by Harry's phone ringing. He got up on his knees to take out his phone from the skin hugging jeans.

"Hey!" He picked up.
"Umm no.. I won't be coming."
"No everything's fine"
"Yeah we'll meet u sometime soon"
"Merry Christmas" And he hung up.

"Who as it?"

"Niall" he tells me shoving that phone into his pocket. "But why did you tell him you won't come? That too where?"

"Ohh..nothing. You don't have to worry. Its just a family Christmas party he had at his home and I'm not going."

"But why?" I got a bit curious.

"Umm..because i dont want to and he invited you too" he tells me.

"So.....?" I try to ask him the reason.

"I'm not going becase you're not going"

"Who said I won't go??" My tone got a bit louder.

"The doctor" he nods and gets up from the bed. My eyes travel as he climbs down.

"But you can go" I tell him the obvious.

"How come that's possible? Whose gonna stay here in case you need something?" he had his hands on his waist.

"I don't need anything anyway and why can't I join you if you go...he's my friend too!!"

"But doctor said no partying!" He reminds me.

"Who listens to the doctor?..shrug it off...its christmas!!" I say the last word out loud

"Nobody is going" he walks from the front of my bed to the door.

"But whyyy?" I protest.he gives me a stare. He was serious.

"Do you know I'm older than you and I can do what I want...and you're supposed to follow my orders and not the other way round" I pull away the sheets which covered me.

"We can talk about that later" he shrugs and twists the knob to open the door and walks out. I climb down from my bed and follow him with full energy but I still felt a bit weak inside.

"Why the hell do you think you kind of own me?"I shouted

"I never said that " he went along the hallway

"Stop acting that you do" I say again and ended up coughing bad. My insides still felt weak, but right now I wanted to know why he behaved this way. He immediately turns around to face me as I was coughing bending down holding my stomach.

"Oh Louis ...stop doing it. you need rest" he tells me rubbing my back so that I could feel better. How is it possible for a man to be so mocking a few seconds ago and then suddenly be so caring. I scoot away his hand from my back becuase this gesture of his made me furious and angry. My cheeks heated up and my eyes were watery due to the whole vigourous coughing.

"Stop doing this...please" my tone went on a bit to harsh.

"What.?.please louis you need rest. I'll walk you to your bed" he comes closer to me resting his hand on my shoulder trying to give me support but I push him back. I could see an expression of shock taking over his face.

"No I need answers!!" I demand right there.

"This is no time!" He argues. His hand comes more closer this time as he holds my upper arms from my back firmly this time. I try to push him away again but his hands were huge and he was strong. Stronger than me.

"Please Harry stop caring so much" i blurt out and somehow I could feel the air between us shifting and I guess my words froze harry then and there as his grip losens against me.

"What are you saying?"he walks in front so that he could face me. His face looked pale suddenly. A frown made his eyebrows knit together.

" you heard me harry stop caring so much" I tell him again my voice getting low and calm. I wasn't shouting or screaming anymore.

"why?? what happened?" He asks me like not sure what to say. The walls that kept him surrounded looked liked they just collapsed. His eyes needed answers of so many questions that I didn't even know. He was caught off guard. All in his miserable state. I could see into those green piercing eyes that he was hiding something! Something that had made him hollow from inside. Like it killed him every second. Some reason he behaved this way.

like he wanted to be treated the same way.

"Please harry I know I don't deserve all this" He didn't say anything to me. Nor did he walk away. He did not know what to do. Standing there just staring into my eyes.

"Don't say that" he finally answers after a long pause. I could see tears tingling at the corner of his eyes. I could see he was fighting too hard to stop them fall down.

"why shouldn't I?" I ask him feeling just as terrible and weak inside. Suddenly I felt that he those walls which just collapsed build up again. Somehow the fight which was going on with himself, he won it. He ate his words again. He stopped those tears from rolling down. There was a little smile on his face which as compared to the smile I witnessed in my room a few minutes ago was never like it.

"You want to go the party?" He asks me looking just as nothing mattered rather than making me happy.rather than agreeing with whateer i said. he just wanted to do things for me.

"Yeah of course. He's a good mate of yours and how could you just not go" I ask him. He left my unanswered questions then. But I think it was for the best as of now.

"Okay then just freshen up and then we'll leave in half an hour?" He assures me the time

Notes

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