LOST AND STILL FINDING(larry stylinson)

Zayn came and sat beside me as he put his hand on my shoulder gently caressing it. I really needed him right now. I leaned my head sideways on his shoulder. I needed support. he knows everything "How is it possible for me to ruin everybody's life?" I ask zayn as I close my eyes.

" what happened harry? why are you saying all this?" Zayn asks me back,his voice full of worry.

"You know I ruined louis' bday" I actually did. Not only his bday but his Christmas too.

"No its not your fault. He's just had a little too much. He'll be fine till the morning" he says. I was glad he told me it wasn't my fault but I knew it was my fault. I sat up straight removing my head from his shoulder. I saw liam coming towards me,"hey buddy how's he doin'??"

"I don't know, nobody hasn't said anything yet. Its been two hours since I got him here and doctor is still not out of the ward" I say as I look up at him while he was standing in front of me.

"Its OK. He'll be fine there's nothing to worry." naill says from behind. They were all so supportive right now and I hope what they're saying is true.

" I was thinking you people should leave. Its already 4 and guess what its Christmas already. You should leave already." I tell all of them. I seriously can't ruin so many people's christmas. They don't deserve it. They need to be with family and friends celebrating.

"And I'm here to stay with Louis. he's my responsibility anyway" I tell them again.

"Are u sure?" Liam asks me as he shoves his hands in his pocket. "I am always fine. You need to leave u know" I tell them firmly. My head was aching, if they wait any more I'm gonna shout at them and kick them out..

"Oh yeah anyway you all are coming for dinner at my house. We have a huge sober party for all the close friends and family. So each of u have to be present. I don't have to remind u OK?" Niall says inviting in all of us. But I don't think that's possible coz if Louis' gonna be here in the hospital then how will I go. But I won't tell him right now, in the evening.

" OK fine" I tell him and they all leave after checking that it was OK for me to stay here.

Sitting there in the corridor and just staring at other patients come and go I had no work to do.

Right now I was all calm and a bit controlled by my thoughts. Finally when the door of the room opened and the doctor came out, I couldn't have been more glad and sad at the same time. My insides had the same regret feeling like always. I was happy and sad at the same time. Happy coz maybe the doctor has some good news and sad coz maybe the doctor has some bad, or really bad news.

He came straight to me,"Louis?? Right is the patients name??" He asks me as he removes his plastic gloves. "Yes doctor" I stand up and went up to him. "See harry,I'm gonna talk to u straight, the drinks I mean the wine he had last night was too much for him. His body couldn't adjust with the amount he gulped in inside because first of all he was allergic to it and second he's never had that much amount of any drink before. So before his body could adjust and he could throw up properly the organs,specially the food pipe swell and the blood pressure went down suddenly. .." Whatever the doctor said got into me like small injections.

Seriously how can I harm somebody so much? all i know was I am such a useless person living on this planet just to destroy innocent people's life. The tears started to tingle in my eyes. A huge lump of regret was resting in my throat. I gulped it down and began, " so doctor in what state is he now?"

"Right now he just needs rest. There's no need to worry, he's not crossed the danger line so he'll be perfectly fine. when he wakes up after the anesthesia gets over he'll be back to normal. But for at least next few weeks he will have to take care of himself. ......after a few hours you can take him home." These words of the doctor worked like sugar on my tongue and I was so glad that nothing dangerous happened to him. In my head I was just thanking god for whatever he did.

"Thank you so much doctor." I hugged him lightly.

"Can I see him?" I pull away as I ask him my voice all shaking.. "Yeah, well and good" he says smiling as he pats me on my shoulder and walks away. I brush my shirt straight and rub my eyes and face and pull my hair back before getting ready to enter the room where Louis was lying.

Notes

Sorry guys!! Idk y but the internet wasn't working properly so it took me time. Anyways enjoy!