LOST AND STILL FINDING(larry stylinson)

LOUIS' p.o.v

The kissing thing went on too long than I expected it to be. I tried to pull away many times and at the same time not trying to hurt him but he seemed to pull me closer every time because of how much more strong he was than me. I finally got the full force inside me to pull away from the kiss coz the feelings inside me had started to change.

As I pulled away and looked at harry, he was crying. I don’t know why but I could see those tears on his face which made something inside me melt. But I was still so confused about the whole thing.

“umm harry…harry u don’t have to cry..no noo no u don’t have to” I whispered to him as I wiped the tears away and pull his chin up as it hung low.

“what happened haz? See there isn’t anything which is hidden now. if you think you can fool around yourself and not tell anybody about it it doesn’t mean nobody notices” I say calmly.

He did not reply anything as I waited for him to. He just went on staring at me in the eye. That hurt in his eyes wasn’t something new. I’ve seen it before. It wasn’t that I wanted him to tell me everything but I wanted to know something. Something that could help me cure him. Make him see the real world. Rescue him from the place where he was lost.

“harry..i want you to open up with me but only if you want to. If you think I’m interfering then I’m really sorry but I wish you could” I say to him as I tried to leave from the room. I tried to get up but harry stopped me.
He did not say anything though. The look in his eyes made me. The tears made those emeralds shine. I sat there back again. He began to say something in his cracked voice

“no Louis. I’m sorry…sor..rry for the kiss and everything I said in the morning. I know u’ve been trying to help me all the time…but..but I just cant..its really difficult for me..and trust me everything is just perfect with me..its just something in..side ,inside me that starts to shudder..everything else is just fine.. u seriously don’t have to worry” he says but this time he stared onto the floor. He played with the ring in his finger.

“are you sure? Is that it? ” I assure. But I wasn’t at all convinced. I knew he wasn’t going to tell me. But it was fine,who was I at last for him to tell me anything.


“yeah…louis it is..you really don’t have to worry”

“you sure?”I ask him again,

“hmm hmm” he nods.

“but what about the kiss thing? Why do you? Why do you have to kiss me evrytime? “ I ask him frowning. That was something really serious. Everytime u just cant do that. We were not even proper friends.

“sorry, but I just wanted to’’

‘’you’re not going to use me like that everytime” there was a sudden change of behavior inside me.


“um..er sorry lou..i was just”

“leave it..just remember this was the last time” I say as I got up from the floor and in return harry nodded. He too got up and as I was about to leave he says, “I was just wondering if you could help me cl…clean thi..iss up”. He was being hesitant.

I did not want to cz I was really tired but I still agreed.
It was 12 and we both had work tomorrow so we have to finish this early. The next half an hour went away cleaning the whole floor which was full of paint. We had to scrub it off the floor. It was so tiring. I just somehow stood there helping him carry the paint boxes back to their right places and everything else back to their original place.
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Harry’s p.o.v
The alarm clock woke me up at 7. I know the amount I enjoyed yesterday with paint would cost me today. My back was aching but there was no hope that I could think of a holiday today too. So I get up as pull away my covers. I stood up as I walked trembling on my feet, squinting my eyes open, to the balcony of my room. I drew the curtains away as the bright sunlight entered the room. I stood there just staring at the roof tops and the sky, the birds, the tree tops and everything else that could seen. My head was blank and right now something I cud think of was just getting ready for work. I might as well have to leave early today to finish my pending work.

After doing all the necessary things in the bathroom I got ready as I wore a simple plain black tee which was a bit transparent enough to see through my tattoos.

I got out of the room to get my shoes. I walked over to the shoe cabinet with was near the kitchen and the hallway.

I looked around for Louis if he was ready or not coz he generally left at 9 and it was 8:15, so we could leave together. As I wore my brown boots and walked into louis’ room I see it empty, but I heard the noise of the shower and Louis humming the song he played last night on the piano.

“Louis?” I shout louder than the shower noise.

“yeah harry?” he replies back loudly as I hear him turn off the shower.

“how much time will you take..umm ..cz I was wondering if..we ..umm..could leave early together..cz u ..leave at the same time as I am today”

“yeah sure…just give me two minutes” he replies which gave a sweet smile on my face.

“I’m waiting in the hall ,okay” I say again as I turn around to move out.

I went out and entered the kitchen to get some cereals for me and another bowl for Louis. I poured down the necessaries in two bowls and picked up mine. I began eating mine as I leaned against the kitchen slab in the same direction from where I could see louis’ room. I could stand here and watch when he comes out.

I stood there nibbling on my cereals and occasionally glancing over the slightly open door of his room if he was out of the bathroom. The place where I was standing gave me a clear and direct view of inside his room through the slightly open door.

After a few minutes of waiting I hear him walk out of the bathroom and I peep in from far away if he really was. Yeah he was standing there his lower half wrapped in a white towel. So maybe in the next few minutes he’d be ready. I turned around to put the bowl into the sink.

When I was done I turn back around but this time the view was something different. That scene made me choke my breath as I stood there coughing lightly coz of what I saw.

I did not know this Louis guy was so hot. I could see him through the door standing completely naked as the towel was now lying on the floor. I wanted to shut my eyes cz if he caught me looking at him, I would be dead any moment.

But something inside me did not want to miss the beautiful scene. I could not see the front portion but the his whole back and the lower parts were completely visible. He called my ass cute? Look at his’. His was the perfect one anybody would die to own. I kept staring at the scene as I did not want to miss it. It was just so perfect. He turned sideways to open the cupboard and I missed a scene which I could die for. The cupboard doors made him hide behind him. I don’t know what he was doing behind the cupboard, probably wearing clothes and stuff, but why did he had too. Those 2 minutes felt like hell. When the cupboard doors closed back again I saw him again but now his lower body was covered with jeans which hung low and I could see his underwear.

I swear if anybody, take me for example, lived with such a guy who was so damn hot and see him change like that I’m pretty sure he would’ve jumped onto him and by now they would be lying in bed having sex. I was sure I won’t be able to control the next time this happens.

As I turned around back to think about something else and distract myself, coz all the dirty thoughts that entered my head right now could give me a boner any second. the next moment I hear him walk out of his room. I tried to act as I was busy washing my dishes or something. Though I knew my cheeks were red.

“so are we ready to move?” he asks me politely as he stood there in the hall wearing his shoes.


“yeah sure…umm Louis…have your cereals first” I say as I pick up the bowl and walk over to him.

“here, the cereals” I hand it to him. I was just somehow trying to be normal after what I saw.

“thanx…” he says. I stood there watching him. Idk what I was doing.

“harry….are your cheeks..like always this red?” he asks me and my eyes shot wide open. Shit he noticed.

“um.. no no no…I ..i actually..actually used a new sunblock today..so I think its just reacting..reacting on my skin” I manage to find an excuse as I blurted out something to him.

“ohh..you should see a doctor I ..guess…its too red on your skin”

“yeah sure thanks I will” I say and walk over to the kitchen to keep his bowl in the sink and finally we both were ready to leave.

He walks out an I follow him as I lock the door behind. We walked silently through the corridor as we waited for the elevator doors to open and enterd in. it was all silent but it was fine between us expect me getting all dirty thoughts in my head right now cz right now my head could only think of horny stuff and nothing else. The 2 minutes the elevator took to reach the basement I could only imagine Louis n me fucking each other in the lift. I really wanted to brush away these thoughts but they didn’t seem to go. I swallowed a lump in my throat as the doors finally opened.

“are you okay harry?” Louis asks me.

“yeah I am… why?” I ask him back.

“no coz I saw you fidgeting with yourself all the time since you’ve exited the house” he says.

“oh that..thats just something..normal..normal for me..you see I am a very fidgety person.”
I say as I walk to my garage. “okay what if I leave you today at your workplace?” I ask him

“no no its fine I have my own car. I’ll drive” he says as he walks away to his own car.

“not a problem for me. Sure I can drop you” I say.

“but then I’ll have to come back walking” he says smiling at me.

“not a problem either I’ll pick you up, u just have to call me” I say. It wasn’t a problem for me any way.

“no harry, its okay I’ll drive’’ he says again not agreeing.

“no I’ll drop you today..anyway I get to know where you work and we can chit chat all the way. Actually I drive everyday alone so it would be nice if you accompany me” I say the real reason behind me forcing him to come along.

“but..’

“no c’mon..no excuses”

“okay okay..i will, anyways I’m getting late..i hope you can drive well and I’m safe wid you” he asks me frowning evilly

“c’mon Louis you haven’t tried me still. I can drive crazy”

“yeah I know but you have to drive the car. I want to be safe” he says as he walks towards the garage and waits for me to pull out the car. I drive out the orange Lamborghini this time.
I peep out of the window as I tell him to take his seat. This was going to be fun. A lot. I pull out of the underground as I drive swiftly to the road giving jerks in between just to scare Louis. I knew he was n girl that would scream and hold my hand tightly if I did that but I was with a guy and right now I just wanted to show off my driving skills. I was really excited until I don’t bang into somebody or something.

“so where do I actually have to drop you?”

“um..at the mr. bakers bakery..you must’ve seen that?”

“yeah ofcorse I know”

“yeah just there”

“what do you have to do there?”I ask him confused,

“what else? I work there silly” I don’t know why but started laughing.

“you don’t have to laugh at me”

“sorry” I say trying to stop but I couldn’t.

“stop it harry” he shouts as he slaps me on the shoulder hard.

“ouch okay”I say as laughed not making sound. But I laughed. I know I shouldn’t be doing that but I couldn’t control. i was getting this death glare from him for about two minutes now until he hit me again with his fist on the shoulder, this time hard.

“sorry sorry…okay..i wont..i wont Louis…I won't” I say laughing and apologizing at the same time.

“have you quite finished harry?” he asks me in a rude sarcastic way. I knew I pissed him off.

“sorry..yeah sure…oh wait listen..you know I too worked here once..you know when I shifted to this city two years back..and then later u know..like u already know about my parents like the luxury nd all, they let me to this record studio..u know they had connections..so I got the job there..i worked there for I think 3 months” I tell him getting quite serious.

“y did u even had to work there..i mean u could’ve got a job easily..and anyway y do u need to work..your parents all Richie rich” he asks me so excited suddenly.

“you can’t always be in support of your family atleast when you’re a grown up” i say.

“like what ? you’re a grown up..you’re just 20 I guess” Louis tells me confused and surprised

“yeah but what? 20 is grown up”

“I’m 22 and still do not consider myself as a grown up..yeah..um I kind of want to enjoy my life being a kid”

“shit..Your’re 22??”

“yeah 22..whats so –so surprising about it? He asks me frowning. I totally cudn’t believe he was 22.

“I mean you look quite young for the way you talk nd behave.”

“you still haven’t experienced me harry” Louis says winking at me.

“what was that?”I ask him surprised.

“something..idk”

“are you always like this?” I ask him again.

“yeah….i suppose”

“then I think I need to know you better”

“I bet you should…you’re missing on a lot of fun”
I laugh at this comment and he does too. He gives one of his evil smirks, which I think I’m going to see most of the times.


“right there at the drive way” he tells me to stop the car as we were standing in front of the bakery.

“thanks harry” he says as he gets down of the car and waves back as he waits for me to drive away.

“what time am I supposed to pick you up?”

“umm..i guess at 8 or 9…I’ll call you”

“okay..bye, have a great day” I drive away as I wish him a good day. “Uhh I am alone again. But I guess I cud drop him everyday. Today was fun. i’ll ask him when I pick him up?”
I headed forward with nothing but thoughts of Louis in my head and how exciting it cud be if I knew him all. The way he told me how much fun it would be being with him actually got me excited. I still do not know if he’s really worth it but I guess he cud be the one. The thoughts were all mixed with a sense of excitement and fun but at the same time fear and loneliness. One part of my head was full of joy and other one full of fear. I’d better stay with the first part.

After about 10 minutes drive to the office I park the car and headed to the elevator to the office.
It took me only a minute to reach the office to meet my boss. If I had to describe his nature, I would surely say he only had a mind of a businessman and nothing else. He was just another boring person who had feelings only for money and nothing else. Though he never attacked me or anything like that but the employees weren’t quite happy with his behavior. he was good to me maybe coz my parents actually helped him start his business , I think maybe some 5-7 years ago. And that is why I was working here at such a position with a pretty nice salary or maybe in the words of Louis, “I was a Richie rich”
I enter the office as I knocked on the door.

“may i?” I ask permission

“yeah sure..u don’t have to take permission ..its been almost two years harry, me telling you this. Its okay even if you enter just like that”

“no no its just fine. Some habits don’t change” in my head right now words of Louis were roaming around as
to how he always complained me being so full of mannerisms.

“c’mon take a seat” SIMON COWELL says smiling.

“so you called me here, any problems with my work?” I ask him doubting.

“no not at all…I had to inform you that this weekend, umm which is just a day ahead, we have Ed Sheeran coming for his record for the new album..so this time too he has..um recommended your name for the recording assistant and he wants you to be there while the whole thing gets over..which I think will get over in about two months I guess”

“sure definitely sir. He called me another day telling me the same thing. I’ll definitely be there if you say so”

“so yeah..you need to be ready again with all your busy work and late night shifts. You’ll be working long hours. He’s our old client and we don’t want to disappoint or lose him, right?”

“yeah sure..um yeah you wont lose him. I assure you sir. You can trust me.”

“I trust you and that’s why I asked you. Okay. I suppose you should start with your work and hiring more men…and yes that day you told me you dint have a pianist. Have you sorted out on that?”

“pianist..oh yeah I need a pianist in the group. John Markel, our old pianist, he left last month cz of some family issue”

“so what are you planning on that?”

“I guess I’ll find a new one…” suddenly something struck in my head. “sure sir, our job is done. I know a pianist who would be willing to join us”

“okay then. Its upto you who you wanna keep but I’d just like to meet him tom, coz we have Ed coming on Saturday itself”

“yeah sir. I’ll definitely tell him to meet you tom. He’ll come with me.” I say as I got really excited now.

“okay then go get your stuff together by tomorrow and I don’t want to hear any complaints”

“definitely sir. You can trust me” I say getting up from my seat and gesturing a handshake.
When I got out of the office I was so excited to get him tom here but is he going to agree? LOUIS’ p.o.v
Today was going to be another busy day coz of Christmas. Today was 15th of December nd the rush was only increasing and increasing!!

“hey, carl.” I say as I enter the bakery.

“hi. why late today?” he asks me.

“woke up late . nothing else”

“oh..”

“is the rush like always this much?” I ask him

“today is much less u know. Its usually just people coming in and ordering specially near Christmas. We barely get to breathe. Get used to it man”

“yeaah I should I guess” I say as I got ready for another hectic day.
The day was just like another busy days with people coming in and ordering. It was now a regular scene for me. And I’d better be ready for the days to come. And yes I guess for my birthday I’d be just distributing cakes and pastries all day.

The day finally got over and I got out of the bakery. I searched for my car keys in the pocket but I remembered harry had to pick me up today. So I call him up.

“hey harry, u told-“

“I know. I’ll be there in two minutes. Just be there” he says as he cut me and I don’t know what was he so exited about all the time. But I was glad atleast he was happy.

I stood there on the footpath waiting for him to come and pick me. Just a few minutes later he was standing there in front of me smiling and gesturing me to sit in.
I smiled back and sat inside the car.

“so how has your day been?” he asks me cheekily.

“umm.i guess today was a busy day and tom is gonna be more busier” I tell him.

“ohh..doesnt matter when at the end of the day you go and hug your bed” he says.

“yeah pretty nice. That bed is my second best friend” after my statement there was silence was a few seconds when harry again asked me something.

“hey when is your birthday??”

“um…why do you wanna know?”

“just like that..u know as a friend maybe?”

“tell me yours first!”

“1st February”

“mine is just around the corner..u can say by the end of next week”

“why didn’t you tell me before …we could certainly plan something for your birthday” he says exited again.

“you never asked me…and anyway I’m not a huge party animal”

“that doesn’t matter. We’ll certainly enjoy. C’mon its your birthday”

“I’m gonna be busy that day stupid. Here at the bakery shop.”

“why is dat so? Don’t they let you celebrate your birthday??”

“noo…the Christmas is next day”


“whoa..so your birthday is on the 24th? Such a nice day to be born”

“yeah probably…” I say as I slided down on the seat and slouched. “Man can you drive faster. I’m really tired”

“ofcorse…” and as he said the last word ..he pressed the accelerator immediately and the Lamborghini made that sound and rushed on the road swiftly and within 5 minutes we were in the parking lot.

“I have to agree..you drive really nice” I compliment him as we both come out of the car.
We walked tot the elevator and entered in.

“I can drive a lot of things if you please”

“I surely would like to know those ‘things’ but for now I miss my bed” I tell him.
As we exited and walked to our door,i waited for him to unlock it. The next moment I simply ran to my room.
Without even caring to take of my shoes I just jumped on my bed. The feeling was so nice. Finally my limbs got the rest they wanted. I think I just fell asleep within two minutes.

HARRY’S P.O.V
That was so funny to see him run like a kid to his room. Yeah he seriously looked tired. His job actually was. They make you work like rats the whole day and then just pay you half of the amount you deserve.
“Oh shit” my head struck. I had to talk about that thing. But when? Probably tomorrow then.

I walk to his room to check if he was still awake..so that I cud ask him but he was already asleep with his shoes on. I walk over to his bed and take of his shoes.. I pull over the covers on him. he was so cute, Was the only thing that got into my head right now. I too decided to off to sleep.

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