Secrets

Louis P.O.V

We manage to walk into the restaurant without any incident with fans finding us. However once we get into the restaurant the fans seem to know where we are like magic. Paul is not to far behind us guiding us toward the back. I grab for Harry's hand to find comfort. I am sure the fans and paps are getting pictures, but more than likely they will be blurry. I notice Liam waving. I suddenly become aware of how nervous I am. Tonight is going to be a complete disaster or a perfect night. I ramble on about something just to try and hide the fact that I am nervous as hell. Liam suggest that we sit with him and his family. Harry and I agree to this seeing as how many fans are now outside. Hopefully sitting with Liam and his family will make it easier for Paul to escort us out when the night ends. If it ever ends I should say. Mostly because of how nervous I am and how Harry is making me feel with his hand running up and down my leg. I have no idea which is going to kill me Harry teasing me or the nerves. Every time he moves his hand up I remember the ring in my pocket and wanting to ask at the right time. But when is the right time? Management has never bothered me about how I can or can't act around Hazza recently, so who cares what they think. The waiter comes to us and takes our orders. My love has not stopped with moving his hands up and down my leg.

"Harry could you please stop rubbing my leg. I don’t know how much more teasing I can take. I know you don’t mean to but its getting a little uncomfortable in these tight pants. You’re not helping with the tightness.” I whisper to Harry who has the biggest smile on his face; like he knows what he did but is still trying to act all innocent. If dinner doesn’t go according to plan then I know that I will have Harry all to myself tonight that I will make sure of. As the wait for our food grows a little longer than expected and everyone is in a conversation I began to fidget with the end of my tie, growing more and more nervous. I pull out my phone and begin to text Kate but change my mind and decide to text Liam. As I type the message my heart rate increases a bit. I look up when I finish texting and wait for Liam to receive the message. Liam chokes on his water a little bit. Yeah probably should have waited until after he took a drink of water to send the message oh well. Liam nods his head and leaves the table.

“I will be back in a few Harold. I need to take care of something.” I say giving him a quick kiss on the cheek as I get up and follow Liam. Locking the door behind us when we are hundred percent sure that no one is in the restroom with us. As Liam begins to talk my heart rate increases more than when I texted Liam.

“What is it that you need help with? You are the most confident of us all. Also have you considered what management will do once they figure out that you proposed to Harry? However I say just ask him. Suck it up and ask him. As for the nerves just take a deep breath right before and say it fast." I hear Liam say rubbing his hands over his face like he is slightly frustrated but more in the “ I hate what you have to go through” frustrated. At this point I was pacing the room and running my fingers through my hair.

“ I know that I'm normally the most confident but still this is the most life changing thing to ever happen. I can't just outright ask. Harry is the world to me. This moment is just so nerve racking; more so than auditioning for the X-Factor as a solo artist. I want the moment I ask to be perfect.” At that moment my heart rate skyrocketed and I began to majorly panic. Liam pulls me into a tight hug. Slowly my heart rate decreases and I can breath in a few shaky breaths to steady myself. When Liam can feel that I am steady enough he lets me go. He doesn't know it but he is my rock when it comes to things like this. He has supported me and Harold through everything. Guess that's why we call him Daddy Direction.

"Let's just go back out there and ask Harry when you feel the right time." I hear Liam say as I splash cold water on my face in hopes to appear like I was not just having a panic attack. Honestly I want to puke right now because of all the nerves and panic of being caught. However I do not have the luxury of that right now since our dinner will be arriving at our table soon.

"Ready to head back out? They are probably wondering where we are." Liam asks as I dry my face off and fix my hair back to the way my Hazza likes it.

“Yeah I am ready. Thank you Liam for all that you have done for me and Harry.” I say before I unlock the door and head back to our table. Everyone has changed seats when we arrive back at our table. Kate and Liam are now sitting next to each other, but Harry and I are still sitting next to each other thankfully. Harry kisses my cheek as I sit back down, also starts rubbing my back as if sensing how unnerved I felt. I really love Harry. I reach into my pocket with the ring. Feeling the cold metal calms me down and start to enjoy the conversation. I want to propose to Harry right now but I can tell this exact moment in time is not the right time. I can see Harry looking over at me. I give him a fond smile and he returns the smile with him grabbing my hand and placing our hands on his leg. Regardless of if I propose tonight that it will be perfect.

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