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My Judgement's Clouded

Oh it's you they ad up to

6 months later.

I haven’t told you but the concert took place in October and that meant that the month now was April. Easter was coming up and for the holiday I was going home to spend it with my mother. I went there by train and it took a really long time, but I was getting used to travelling this way. When I got to her I got settled and then we went to the hospital. My last six month had been very up and down. Every month was a new challenge and I didn’t know how I would handle the future. I was becoming scarred and that’s why I went home to mommy. I needed her support and knew that she would never leave me, no matter what. Maddie wouldn’t either but right now I needed my mother. Really bad. We went to the doctors’ office to do a check up and everything looked fine. I felt like crying every time I looked at the huge reminder of the big mistake I had made. But every time I felt the tears come I reminded myself that this was something good. Sure, I was doing this alone, but that had been my decision and nobody else’s. After the visit to the doctor we went home and I went straight to bed. I felt so worn out after studying and dealing with this.

That’s pretty much how my days went by. I woke up and just chilled the entire day. I hung out with my mother when she wasn’t working and when I was alone I would read. I liked reading a lot and didn’t want that to stop. My books always gave me a change to escape the world and forget about the mistakes I’ve done and people that I missed. And the people I missed I knew I could never get back. I and Harry had stayed in touch for a few months but it became hard to lie to him when he asked how everything was going. I couldn’t tell him the truth and I really didn’t want to lie to him. I quit answering his texts and calls and after about a month he stopped trying. It broke my heart because he didn’t deserve that treatment but I hurt him anyways. I hated myself for that, I really did but it was for the best. He would hate me if he found out the truth. Not to speak about Louis. He would despise me for the damage I would cause. Maddie was still talking to Niall, the two of them still very much in love. She knew that she never could tell Niall the truth either but she didn’t have the heart to break it off.

After being at my mothers for about four days my phone rang and I saw Maddie name on the screen. I smiled and my heart swell a little, I really loved that girl.

“Hello Maddie!” I answered happily and sat up straight in my bed. I had just been taking a nap.

“Hey Ross.” She answered with a bit of hesitation in her voice.

“Is something wrong?” Of course we spoke in Swedish but I thought I heard someone speaking English in the background.

“No everything is fine!” She spoke more happily and walked away from the speaking persons. I heard her shut a door and after that she continued speaking. “You can never guess who is here!” I smiled at her excitement and then answered.

“Let me guess….” I dragged out the s sound and then thought really hard about it. “Is it you German relatives?” I heard her laugh as if my suggestion was really stupid and when she stopped she spoke with a lot of excitement in her voice.

“No stupid!” I sighed and shook my head. I knew her to well. “It is a very cute Irish boy!” I gasped and couldn’t believe what she had just told me.

“Niall is there?” I had to ask to be sure. Thank good I wasn’t there. I rubbed my stomach feeling a little afraid.

“Yeah, and the rest of the boys too! How cool isn’t that!?” She started to laugh again and that’s when I realized that there was a few things I didn’t want them to see.

“Maddie.” I spoke with a stern voice and when she heard my voice she stopped laughing. She said a quick ‘uh-hu’ and then waited for me to continue. “Did you take down the pictures?” I heard her gasp and then it became silent on the line. She had left the phone on her bed and was probably walking out into the living room to take away the pictures. I heard something shuffling in her room and then her voice filled the line again.

“I am so sorry Rosanna!” She was panting a little, being stressed about the fact that Liam could’ve seen the pictures. “They are down and it didn’t seem like they had seen them!” She sounded a bit worried but I let out the breath I was holding. Liam finding out would be the end of the world.

“It’s fine Maddie! As long as he didn’t see them then everything is fine.” I smiled and mentally cursing myself. “Maddie I need to go. My mom needs me.” She responded with a small ‘ok’ and then sighed.

“I really am sorry Ross.”

“I know Maddie! Don’t worry about it, if the pictures are down then we have nothing to fear!” She sighed again and then said goodbye, telling me that she loved me. I sighed and put the phone on my nightstand. Feeling a bit hungry I went to the kitchen and made myself a sandwich. My mom was working so I had lied to Maddie, but I was feeling really tired right now. I placed sandwich on a plate and poured a glass of cola and then went back to my room. I sat on the bed with my back leaning against the wall. I turned on the TV not really watching it. I sighed and put the plate on my stomach. I drank a little cola and then cupped the downside of my stomach. My very much pregnant stomach.


I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol