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My Judgement's Clouded

Tonight lets get some

I was laying on a field and he was holding my hand. My eyes were closed and the sun shined through my eyelids. I sighed and felt utterly happy. He was the only one I wanted to be with and he was laying next to me. I heard him move and when I opened my eyes he was hovering above me with a sweet smile on his face. He looked at me and then looked down at my stomach. When I shifted my gaze downwards the sight surprised me but at the same time it made me happy as heck. He placed his hand on me growing stomach and I felt the small baby inside of me kick. I let out a small laugh as I though about the future. The baby already loved its father, and so did I. As my laughter eased out I found him staring at me. I smiled at him and he smiled back. He leaned down and kissed me so softly that I didn't know how I could have been this lucky. When he leaned back he took my left hand and started to play with the ring on my finger. I felt a bit confused but the feeling was a good one. And the ring on my finger matched the one on his left hand. He placed my hand above his heart and looked at me with watering eyes.
"I love you so much Mrs Payne." I smiled at him and felt my eyes water to.
"I love you more, Mr Payne." With those last words I leaned forward and kissed him hard on the mouth. I was married to Liam Payne.

I woke up with a twitvch and felt someones arms around me. It felt good but at the same time I felt trapped. I tried moving a little bit, the person laying behind me, When that someone felt me move he tightened his grip on me and snuggled his head in my hair. I opened my eyes and looked around the room I was sleeping in. It looked like a hotel room and had beautiful decorations in gold on the white walls. Even thought the room was gorgeous I couldn’t find myself to enjoy it because I felt confused about tha man behind me. I didn’t remember going to a hotelroom with a guy, but then again I didn’t remember anything from after Liams confession to the boys. I cursed underneath my breath and decided I needed to get the heck out of there. Forst I had to pull my arms free because he was holding them firm with his one arm.I gently lifted his arm of me and then got out of the bed as softly as I could.

Surprisingly I didn’t feel hungover at all, but I was sure that it would hit me later. I walked into the bathroom, grabbing my clothes of the floor on the way. I had woken up naked so that was really bad news. Sometimes I acted really stupid and that seemed to be more often when I had a drink or two. I looked at myself in the mirror after locking the door and sighed at the makeup still on my face. I started to wash it of and grabbed a towel to dry myself with. I used the toilet for natural buisness and then got dressed. I saw a toothbrush on the sink and decided to borrow it, thinking that if I slept with the guy I already all of his germs. I brushed my teeth and then splashed some water on my face again, getting ready to do the walk-of-shame. I unlocked the door and walked out into the bedroom which I had slept in last night. The person that had been holding me so very tightly was now sitting up and had his head in his hands. I cleared my throat and braced myself for the awkward conversation to come. When he turned around some of last nights events came back. I remembered that I really had gone to a One Direction concert and I really had gone to their after party. And now the person sitting on the bed and who had turned around to face me was no one other then Liam fucking Payne. I started to panick and the sickness hit me. It wasn’t that the idea of sleeping with Liam was gross it was the fact that he still had a girlfriend and I had fallen into the same trap again. As if he understood what I was thinking he spoke.

“Don’t blame yourself Rosie.” He sighed and his head dropped. “It’s not your fault.” I shook my head and started to get really mad. And in my rage I remembered one thing.

“We had sex right?” He looked up at me with realization in his eyes and nodded, he knew I didn’t remember anything. Now the panick started coming over me and I felt like crying. “Did you use a condom?” Usually I would dare to ask a guy these kind of questions but I had to know the answer.

Liam looked at me and confusion struck his eyes. “No,” He shook his head and looked at the wall behind me. “You said you were on the pill.” Of course I did. He looked at me and waited for me to answer. I felt numb, but didn’t want him to know the truth.

“Yeah of course I am.” I smiled a little towards him, before turning to the door. “I just don’t want to catch anything.” I turned around to see his reaction and he looked a little hurt. I started to feel really bad, both for lying and for being mean. “Not that I’m saying you have anything but you never know…” I sighed and pulled a hand through my very dirty hair.

“Yeah I understand.” He looked up and smile at me. He started to stand up so I backed to the door.

“Thank you so much for last night.” I stuck my hand out towards him and he looked hurt, again. Nevertheless he grabbed my hand and shook it. When he let go I spoke again. “Do you know where my friend is? Maddie?” I smiled at him and put my hand on the door.

“Yeah, she is in Nialls room. Across the hall.” He pointed out the door and I nodded and smiled.

“Thank you.” I started to open the door when he called my name.

“Rosanna…” I turned and looked at him. My dream came back and I had to struggle not to hug him.

“Have a nice life Liam.” I smiled and walked out the door, making sure to shut it behind me. Before I could start crying I knocked on the door in front of Liams and waited. When my bestfriend opened the door I couldn’t hold it in anymore. She didn’t say anything, she just pulled me into the room and hugged me until my tears began to stop coming. She leaned back and lifted my chin.

“Vad hände?” What happened? She asked me in Swedish as if she knew that it had to do with Liam. I sniffled and felt the tears come back.

“Jag låg med honom.” I slept with him. I responded her in Swedish. She pulled me over to the sofa where Niall was sitting watching some TV. As soon as he saw me he shot up and helped Maddie put me on the sofa.

“What happened?” Maddie looked at me and she knew what I had meant. She knew that even though he had a relationship it would make me feel like this, she knew that.

“I am going to tell you something Niall and you have to promise not to tell Liam any of it.” He looked at him stearnly and pointed her finger at him. “Promise!” Nialls hand flew up and he looked shocked, he didn’t know Maddie could be harsh.

“I promise!” He looked at me and I had to turn away. The look he was giving me was pity, and he didn’t even know anything yet.

“Ross are you ok with this?” Maddie spoke to me and I nodded and put my head in my hands.

“Whats going on Maddie?” Niall sounded a little scared and I heard him move closer to my bestfriend.

“Ross and Liam slept together.” Niall only responded with a ‘ok’ and then waited for the punch line. “She quit the pill about three months ago when she realized they weren’t working for her.” I heard Niall take a deep breath and Maddie continued. “They didn’t use a condom.” I felt the tears come again and I felt really bad.

“What?” Niall sounded shocked, mad and worried. “We have to tell Liam about this.” My head snapped up and I stood. I walked over to where Niall was standing and hit him on his chest.

“You and I both know that we can’t do that. And it’s not even sure that I am pregnant.” I looked down at my shoes and then up at Niall again. “Do you want his life with you guys to disappear? Do you want the whole world calling me a whore? Do you want Liam to loose everything he loves?” Niall shook his head at all of the possibilities and stared at me. “All of this is going to happen if we tell him.”

“If you are pregnant, are you going to kepp it.” I was shocked at the question and Niall looked at me, waiting for my answer. I looked over to where Maddie was standing and I gave her a look. She knew the answer.

“Of course not. But if Liam knew don’t you think he would insist that I do?” I looked at Niall with a pleading look.

“Niall you can’t tell him. He is not going to feel better by knowing.” Maddie looked at Niall and he folded. He sighed and nodded, even thought you could see he didn’t like the idea. They stared at each other for several seconds and then Maddie looked at me. “Ross, can you go downstairs and I’ll meet you there?” She wanted to talk to Niall and say goodbye, probably swich numbers. You could really tell that they liked each other and I wasn’t going to ruin that.

“Yeah sure.” I hugged Niall and kissed him on the cheek. “Thank you Niall, I’ll see you around.” I winked at him and then walked out of the room. Instead of walking to the elevator I walked to the stairs and began to climb down. We were on the tenth floor so nobody was using the stairs. I walked the entire way down and got to the lobby where I spottet Harry. I tried to avoid him and walked behind plants to make myself invisible. But of course my little plan failed and Harry spotted me in seconds.

“Ross!” He shouted after me and I thought about ignoring him but then decided that it would look stupid. I sighed and stopped. When I turned around he was right behind me and I plastered a smile on my face. “You didn’t think you could leave without saying goodbye did you?” He hugged me and held me tight for a long time. I hugged him back and drew in his scent.

“I am so sorry Harry.” He pulled back and looked at me with twisted eyebrows.

“What did I tell you about apologizing?” His smile got bigger and it made me laugh.

“Well then I am so not sorry for saying I was sorry?” I smiled and winked at him. “Was that right?” He laughed and shook his head.

“Not even close.” We both laughed and he hugged me again. I didn’t want to let him go, Harry was a really nice person. We stood there hugging for a very long time, and people started to stare at us.

“Harry.” I spoke softly, not wanting to disturb the peace. He pulled back and looked a little sad. “How about we switch numbers or something? So that we can continue to talk.” I smiled at him and his face lit up.

“I usually don’t do stuff like this. But I really like you Ross. Here is my number…” He wrote it down on a piece of paper from his pocket and then handed it to me. He had done small hearts on it and I smiled.

“I’ll call you right now so you can get mine.” I pulled my phone out and called the number. His phone in his pocket started to play a song by The Beatles.

“There! Now I got yours to!” I saw Maddie walking towards us and I hugged Harry one last time.

“Maddie is coming…” His face fell a little but he was still smiling.

“Well I quess I’ll see you later then…”

“You’re one of a kind Harry, keep it strong!” I hugged him and told him goodbye, I also told him to call me soon. He said bye to both me and Maddie and then we walked out of the hotel. The feeling I’ve had upstairs came back and I needed to buy a pregnacytest.

Before we went home we went and bought one. When we got home I went straight to the bathroom and peed on that bloody stick. I waited for five minutes and when the time was up I didn’t dare to look at it. I called Maddie into the bathroom and told her she would look at it. I covered my eyes but I still heard her every sound. She gasped.


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I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol