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My Judgement's Clouded

She's afraid of falling in love

Maddies and I’s little talk got me thinking about all the drama in my life. And to be added to that drama was the little lunch I was going to have with Liams ex-girlfriend. I was dreading this lunch and actually started sweating when Liam and Niall walked into the room. They had been recording for about two hours and were now going to drive me and Maddie back to Liams flat. Eleanor was going to pick us up there and then we were going to meet up with Danielle down by Piccadilly Circus. I was ecstatic too see the oh so famous Piccadilly but that didn’t make me forget about the fact that I was meeting Danielle. What if she hated me and all she wanted out of today was to yell at me for taking her boyfriend, which I didn’t do?

Maddie had just told me about the little date she and Niall had had the day before when the boys walked in.

“You ready to go?” Liam walked over to me and grabbed my hand to help me off the sofa.

“No but you just pulled me up so now I have to go.” I pouted, he laughed and then kissed my nose.

“It will be fine, Rosie.” I sighed at his stupid nickname because in this moment it made me feel like a child.

“Do you have to call me that when I feel sad?” I pouted some more and he just laughed more.

“Yes because you are as cute as the name.” He pecked my lips and I sighed again, but this time because I wanted a longer kiss. I stared into Liams eyes and he into mine for a long time until someone cleared their throat.

“We should get going before Paul gets a hissyfit.” Niall spoke and I assumed he was the one who had cleared their throat. When I looked over at him he was holding his arm around Maddies waist. I gave Maddie a sweet smile and a wink that made her blush.

“Yeah right.” Liam cleared his throat, out of awkwardness, and put his hand in mine. From what I had heard about the boys before I met them, Liam was the one keeping track of time and made sure everyone got to the places they needed to go. But now it seemed like he had other thoughts in his head all the time. I looked up at him and saw him blushing. As I reached up to kiss him his cheeks became a darker shade of red.

“Great then, lets gooo.” Maddie dragged out the word ‘go’ and spoke with a sarcastic tone. I loved that girl but please, give me some Liam-time.

“Yes we really should darling.” Niall looked down at the girl in his arms and kissed her cheek. She blushed and looked up into his eyes. They stayed like that for half a minute and then it was my time to clear my throat.

“Look who’s stalling us now.” I winked at both of them and they both blushed so madly all I could do was laugh. I started to drag Liam out of the room and grabbed my purse on my out. We took the elevator down to the first floor and walked out of the building with five bodyguards. When we were inside the car we all relaxed, there was still tons of screaming girls outside the studio. It was more than crazy. As I said before, the drive to Liams flat from the studio was not that long so it only took fifteen minutes. We started riving and Niall started the conversation.

“So where are you guys going to lunch?” I smiled at his question, since I didn’t know exactly where we were going.

“I actually don’t know at all.” Maddie spoke before me and then leaned forward to ask me. “Do you know Ross?”

“All I know is that we are going to a restaurant near Piccadilly.” I heard Maddie squeal and I laughed out loud.

“Please tell me you’re not kidding?!” She almost shouted at me. I turned around as much as I could and smiled at her.

“No I am not kidding.” I heard that I sounded really excited to but I just couldn’t hide it. Both of the boys rolled their eyes as Maddie and I started fangirling over Piccadilly. “El said that they might show us around after lunch, if we felt like it.”

“Gosh! Of course I feel like it!” She grabbed my shoulders from behind me and started shaking me. “Maddie this is our dream!” I laughed and reminded her a little.

“Oh you mean our dream to go to Piccadilly and meet the love of our lives?” She and I both laughed so hard that in the end we both had tears running down our cheeks. Since we had been laughing so hard we hadn’t noticed that we were at Liams flat.

“Girls…” Liam began speaking.

“As much as we love to hang with you…” Niall continued.

“We really need to get going back to the studio…” Liam finished and smiled sweetly. I wiped the tears away from my face and smiled back at him.

“Sorry.” I leaned forward and kissed him. I felt his hand on the side of my face and the kiss deepened. When I finally pulled back I just looked at him and held my hand out. He looked at it with confusion in his eyes and I just smiled.

“I don’t understand…” He looked so bloody confused it took all my will power not to laugh in his face.

“I think I am going to need some keys to get into the flat.” I raised my eyebrows at him. “Don’t you think so?”

“Right!” He began taking the key of his keychain and handed it to me. “I totally forgot, sorry.” He smiled at me and kissed my lips quickly.

“Do you have a spare?” I opened the door and looked back at him.

“Yeah I’ll just take one of the boys’ keys.” I laughed and then realized he was serious. I shook my head and got out of the car.

“I’ll see you later.” I waved at him and Niall got in the front seat, he and Maddie had gotten out of the car to say goodbye.

“Text me when you’re on your way home, okay?” I smiled at him and nodded. Niall shut the door and I walked over to where Maddie was standing. We waved the boys off and then began to walk inside.

“So you and Liam are at the ‘when you get home’ bas huh?” I looked at Maddie as we stepped into the small elevator in the building.

“I guess so.” I narrowed my eyes at her. “It’s his home and I am going there later so…” I looked down at the floor as the elevator moved upwards.

“Oh please Rosanna. You obviously like him a lot.” I looked up at her and sighed.

“Well yeah I do. But I feel so dirty getting comfortable so quick after I practically dumped Harry.” She sighed and I saw her shook her head.

“He said he was fine with you guys being friends. Everyone heard it.”

“Yeah but you didn’t see the hurt in his eyes, Maddie. I broke his bloody heart for a second time.” I sighed and the elevator made a ding noise. The doors opened and I walked out into the hallway.

“Please don’t do that to yourself Ross. You can’t beat yourself up for being with Liam. If you do you’ll just end up breaking his heart too.” I knew she was right but I wasn’t sure I wanted to admit it. We came to the door that led to Liams flat and I opened it with the key he had given me.

“You might be right but I feel bad for Harry.” I walked into the flat with Maddie behind me. “And I hate the fact that I can’t be best friends with him anymore. All of the guys think it’s weird.” I made a disgusted face and sighed. I closed the door and then walked into the kitchen grabbing two cokes from the kitchen.

“Yeah well it’s only Liam opinion that should matter to you.” She took one can from me and sat down on the sofa in the living room.

“Yeah I know but it’s not like Louis liked me from the beginning and I don’t know about Zayn.” I sighed and opened my soda. “I’m going to talk to Liam later about all of this and see what he thinks but I am a little scared.”

“Yeah I would be too…” She obviously spoke before she thought about the words. My gaze snapped up to her with an angry stare. “You know what I mean.” She sighed and sat up more straight. “Look, I could tell you that everything will be fine and that Liam will be fine with you and Harry being friends. But I do not know him and my research comes from regular guys.” She shrugged and drank from her soda.

“But he is not a regular guy.” I raised one of my eyebrows. “Not by a long shot.” I shook my head.

“Then you have your answer. He is going to be understanding, Ross. Plus he is totally in love with you!” She punched me lightly on my arm and laughed.

“OMG Maddie! That hurt!” It didn’t but still… I rubbed my arm as I smiled smugly at her. “And he looks at me like Niall looks at you.” I winked at her and she blushed. “Aaw, is little Maddie in love Niall too?” I used my baby voice and she shot me a death glare. This of course made me laugh until I couldn’t breathe anymore. She slapped the back of my head, making me snap out of my laughter. I mouthed an ‘ow’ and Maddie laughed.

“You can be so evil when you want to!” I fake laughed and snorted.

“Please! So can you, Miss Sassy Pants!” We both laughed.

“Well maybe that’s why we are best friends huh?” She winked at me and there was a knock on the door.

“We do match on the sass-o-meter!” I winked at her and she laughed. I went to open the door and when I did no one other then Eleanor stood outside it. “Hi El!” I leaned forward and hugged her tightly.

“Hello!” She hugged me back and gave me a kiss on my cheek. I smiled and let her into the flat. She looked over to the sofa where Maddie was getting up. She walked over to us and hugged El.

“Cheerio mate!” Maddie spoke with a really fake British accent that made both me and El laugh.

“Hello darling.” Eleanor smiled at her and then looked over to me. “Well are you ready?” I nodded and grabbed my purse.

“Yepp we are.” I waited until Maddie had her purse and was out the door until I locked it and placed the key in my purse. We walked in silence to the car and when we got outside I spotted some paparazzi. I took a deep breath that sounded like a gasp and El looked at me with worried eyes.

“Try do ignore them.” She placed a hand on my shoulder as I nodded.

“Kind of hard though. I’m just not used to being photographed like this.” I shrugged and got into Els car. She started to drive with me in the backseat for a change and Maddie in the front seat. We kept on talking about all of the crazy stuff Eleanor had been involved in with the press. She told us that they didn’t know what personal space was and that the more you fight them the more rumours they make up. We had been driving for ten minutes or so when El turned into a small parking lot that was in the middle of London.

“It’s a small walk to the restaurant but there is no parking near it.” She got out of the car and waited for us to get out too.

“That’s fine. Then we can see a little bit of London on the way.” I spoke with a happy tone and felt myself shaking inside. We started to walk and the sights were amazing. The houses in London are so beautiful that I just couldn’t understand I was there. We walked through huge crowds of people and plenty of them stared at El, and then turned their heads to me. I tried to block all of them out and looked at the houses and the shops. It was all so amazing that I just didn’t understand how it was possible that I was here. My life never took me to beautiful places until the very special day I met One Direction. I was busy looking around at all the wonderful things that I didn’t notice that we were at the restaurant.

“Ross, we’re here!” El waved her hand in front of my eyes and snapped me out of my trans. I looked at her and then at the place where she was pointing.

“Awesome!” I tried smiling convincingly but both Maddie and El noticed it.

“She is not going to bite you, Ross.” El spoke and gave me a one armed hug.

“Exactly. And if she does you go and bite her right back!” She punched me lightly on my arm and then laughed. I laughed weakly with her and El joined. I knew that Danielle wouldn’t bite me and all I’ve heard about her seems to say she is a sweetheart. But you never know what is going to happen. I nodded and we started to walk into the small pub-like restaurant. The moment we walked into the place Eleanors name was called out. When we turned to the person who had shouted her name it was no one other than Danielle Peazer. I felt my heart start to quicken and I felt myself starting to get extremely jealous. She was so beautiful that I almost thought Liam was stupid for breaking up with her. I am one hundred percent straight but she had this charisma that made me want to stare at her for hours. Silly little me with my silly pregnancy hormones. We walked over to Danielle. She was sitting at a table for four and when we got to her she got up and hugged Eleanor.

“It is so nice seeing you again! I’ve missed you!” Danielle spoke to El and smiled an amazing smile.

“It’s been too long! I’ve missed you too!” El laughed and Danielle joined her as Maddie and I stood there awkwardly waiting. El seemed to remember us there and turned around so she was facing both us and Danielle. “Oh, sorry. Danni, this is Rosanna and Madelene. Ross and Maddie this is Danielle.” She introduced us and I turned to Danielle.

“Hi Danielle.” I stuck my hand out for her and she took it smiling.

“It is so nice to meet you.” She turned to Maddie and shook her hand too. “Nice to meet you too. You’re dating Niall right?” Maddie blushed and nodded.

“Yeah…” She answered quietly and looked at the ground. Danielle turned towards me and I tried to smile at her.

“And you are the one and only Ross.” She laughed at her own joke and then looked at me with happy eyes. I breathed out the breath I had been holding and smiled for real.

“Yeah I guess that’s me.” I shrugged. El cleared her throat and we all looked at her.

“Should we stand the entire time or does anyone of you want to sit?” We all laughed and I put a hand on my back.

“I really want to sit down. My back and my feet are killing me today.” I sighed and Maddie laughed. Eleanor just smiled at me and Danielles eyes found their way to my stomach.

“Oh right… We should get this out of the way, the big elephant in the room so to speak.” She looked up at me with a serious gaze. I felt myself start to panic again and waited for her to continue. She must’ve noticed my frightened look because she sighed and shook her head. “Look Ross, I’m not mad at you or have anything against you. I really want Liam to be happy and I know that’s not with me.” She smiled sweetly to me. “He and I didn’t work and you were the one who gave him courage to break it off.” She leaned forward and grabbed my hand. “Neither of us was happy in that relationship but I couldn’t find it in my heart to break it off. And I want to thank you for giving him a voice to speak up with.” She squeezed my hand and then leaned back into her seat.

To make things a little more clear, I was sitting directly in front of Danielle, El next to her and Maddie next to me. We were sitting in a small back room so there was no way for the paparazzi to photograph us from the outside.

“Wow, thank you Danielle.” I looked at her with amazed eyes. “I was so worried that you were going to hate me for everything that had gone down between you and Liam.” I looked at my hands and shook my head. “And then the fact that I am pregnant with his child.” I almost whispered those words and felt guilt sting my heart. Danielles hand was now on mine again and she spoke with soft words.

“El explained everything to me. And I talked to Louis to and he said that even though he was judgemental in the beginning he understood that you didn’t mean for this to happen.” When I looked up at Danielle the waiter came to our table.

“Have you decided what you are getting?” We all realized we hadn’t looked at the menu. We all looked at it quickly and all got the same thing, burgers. We all drank coke too, such a little girl get-together. We all small talked until we got our drinks and then we got back to the previous conversation.

“So is it a girl or a boy?” Danielle spoke and sounded really interested in the answer. I glanced over at El and looked at her with questioning eyes.

“I didn’t tell her because I thought it was your thing to tell.” She shrugged and smiled at me. I smiled back at her and nodded. I looked back at Danielle with a smile on my face and took a deep breath.

“It’s going to be a girl.” A huge smile broke loose on Danielles face and she clapped her hands.

“She is going to be gorgeous!” We all laughed, me because I thought Danielle was to sweet for her own good and the others for some other reason. We got our food soon after that and talked about everything between earth and Pluto.

It really turned out that Danielle was a really sweet person that didn’t hate me at all. She wanted me and Liam to be happy and she actually hoped she and I could be friends. I was so weird to me when I met her and she was so sweet because in my head I had already condemned her. Even though I didn’t know her. I did the exact thing I feared she would do to me. I wasn’t really a good person sometimes, I thought people would hate me for the one thing that made me who I was today. While we had talked my baby girl had kicked and Danielle had asked if she could feel it. I said yes and when she felt that little creature kick she laughed the most beautiful laugh ever and told me ‘thank you’. I was still stunned at how amazing she was.

When we were about to leave Danielle asked to speak to me alone. While the other girls walked outside we stayed behind and I waited for her to talk.

“I really appreciate you being so okay with all of this.” She looked nervous and I just smiled at her.

“I should say the same thing to you. I thought you were going to hate me.” She laughed and pulled me into a hug.

“I would never! You can’t hate someone you never met.” She let me go but still had her hands on my shoulders.

“I agree!” I turned around to grab my purse and then turned back to her.

“And it’s nice that I have my cuddle buddy, so I’m not alone at night.” She winked at me and we started to walk out of the restaurant. I looked at her and raised an eyebrow.

“Oooh, and who might that be?” She smiled sweetly at me and then looked down at the ground.

“It’s supposed to be a secret, not even El knows…” She looked up at me and stopped walking. “Promise you won’t tell anyone.” She looked at me seriously. I smiled sweetly and nodded.

“Of course Danielle. I promise.” She smiled and leaned in close. The next few words she whispered in my ears crashed my small world.

“Harry Styles.”


I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol