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My Judgement's Clouded

I don't have the answer

“So when do you want to tell the boys about the baby?” Liam spoke and looked up from his newspaper. After he and I had talked, among other things, last night we had actually gone to sleep. And now, after a good nights sleep I was feeling rather good about everything. Some things were still unresolved but right now I felt amazing. Earlier today I had been to the test center, or whatever they called it, and they took tests on the baby. They said everything looked fine but we would have to wait for the x-ray to come in to know for sure.

“How about when they get here?” I sighed with content and looked down at the book in my hands. “Did you remember to tell Niall to bring food? I am starving!” Liam laughed and took my hand.

“Yes I remembered to tell him, he is going to pass Nandos on his way here.” I got a disgusted look on my face and Liam laughed even more. “You don’t like Nandos? He is going to be heartbroken when he hears that.”

“No it’s not that. I love Nandos, I think. I have never tasted it actually.” I smiled at Liam and he leaned forward to brush some hair away from my face. He looked into my eyes for a really long time, making me blush like a crazy person.

“Rosanna…” Liam whispered my name so softly I thought my heart would break. I felt my eyes tear up as I heard someone clear their throat behind Liam. I broke the stare and looked around him to see Zayn standing there. Liam had gotten a really distant look and was now sitting in the chair next to my bed, staring at the wall.

“Hey Zayn!” He smiled at me and walked over to hug me.

“Hello love! How are you?” He sat on the side of the bed and smiled gently at me.

“Well I am as good as anyone would be in this situation.” I smiled at him. “I am feeling really good today actually, went and took some tests before and we are now waiting for the results.” Zayn nodded his head towards Liam.

“Yeah he told me when he called.” I sighed at Liam, he didn’t have to be so distant right now. I knew why he was acting like this. After I had told him not to tell anyone he looked at me like I had crushed his dream but he said he understood.

“Oh, okay. Are the others here too?” Zayns smile faltered a little and he nodded. “What’s wrong?” He cleared his throat before answering.

“Harry doesn’t want to come in though.” Now it was my smile that faltered and I just looked at Zayn. I felt my eyes tear and he noticed. “He doesn’t know how to deal with this. He think that is was his fault that you were there.”

“But it wasn’t.” I shook the tears away and started to get a little mad. “Gosh! It’s Liam all over again! Why can’t people accept the fact that I make my own decisions and that makes hers?” Liams head snapped up as I spoke his name and he just looked at me. “Ugh! Whatever.” I looked down at my hands and noticed that Zayn was holding something. I looked up smiling at him. “What’s that?” I pointed to the teddy bear in his hands and he blushed.

“Well even though you have a mind of your own I wanted to say sorry for everything that had happened. Including telling everyone I would totally hump you.” He winked at me and I blushed like crazy. Zayn laughed and I couldn’t help but laugh along with him. He handed the bear to me and on the stomach there was something written.

“’I love you.’ Naaw, I love you too Zaynie!” I leaned forward as much as I could and pulled him into a hug. When I leaned back I laughed at the cute bear. “Keep it up and you might be a God-Parent.” I winked at him as his smile grew.

“Oh please, that spot is already mine!” Louis came running into the room and over to me. He pulled me into a hug and winked at me. “Isn’t that true, Rosie Cosy?” I laughed at his stupid nickname for me and then fake a thoughtful look.

“Well…” I waited a few seconds before I continued. “There are pros and cons.” I waited a few more. “And you are the only one who didn’t want to sleep with me so I guess that’s a plus!” Liam and Zayn laughed out loud and I smiled at Louis. “But nothing is decided yet, darling.”

“You see! Ha ha Zayn! I am still in the race!” They boys all laughed as I spotted a girl behind Louis. She looked incredibly uncomfortable and a little sad. I cleared my throat and the boys went silent.

“Louis, who is that?” He looked behind him and realized that she was still there. He put his arm around her waist and directed her towards the bed. She was holding his hand and he nodded towards her.

“This is my girlfriend Eleanor.” Of course I knew that was her, I’d seen her in several newspapers and so on. I smiled at her as I tried to sit up more straight. This was the girl who was mad at me for steeling her best friends’ guy. Of course I was nervous.

“Hi, I am Rosanna, but you can call me Ross.” I stuck out my hand towards her and hoped she would take it. It took a few seconds, who felt like hours, but then she finally took it.

“I’m Eleanor, as Louis said.” I smiled at her and let her hand go. After that the room fell into an awkward silence. Everyone was looking really nervous and I was just glad that she hadn’t been mean to me. Harry and Niall walked into the room, looking really happy, but soon sensed the mood. Their smiles fell and I heard Harry ask Liam what was going on. I looked over at them and saw Liam shrug. This was just awkward. I was about to speak when I heard Eleanor clear her throat and look at me.

“I would like to speak to Rosanna alone, is that okay with you guys?” Oh goodness here it comes. She is going to yell at me for steeling Liam, even though I didn’t, and then hate me for the rest of her life. They boys all nodded and started to walk out of the room. I looked at Liam and Harry and they both came up to me.

“We will be right outside that door, Ross.” Harry spoke and squeezed my hand. Liam nodded and smiled at me before squeezing my hand too. When they left I felt the panic start to take over and instead of looking at the person in front of me I looked at my hands. I heard the door close and then Eleanor started to speak right away.

“I am so sorry, Ross.” I looked up at her in confusion and she looked pained.

“What? Why?” I didn’t understand why she was sorry, mostly because she personally hasn’t done anything to me. She stood there fiddling with her hands as she tried to find her words.

“For judging you. I don’t even know you.” She sighed and sat down in the chair Liam always used. “I was mad because every time he talked about you he didn’t get this look that he used to get with Danielle. This look he got every time your name was mentioned was much more sincere and loving. I thought they had all that, they seemed so bloody happy and then out of the blue they broke up. I just wanted to blame someone instead of realizing the truth.” She looked up at me with sad eyes that soon travelled to my belly. “And when I heard that you were carrying his child I just jumped to the conclusion that you wanted to ruin his life.”

“I don’t want to do that… I tried keeping all of this away from them, from Liam, but that failed.” She smiled at me and sighed.

“I know. Louis told me about all the arguments you and he have had.” I laughed a little and then my smile fell. Louis was the only who didn’t like me. I looked at my hands and refused to look up at her.

“He doesn’t like me at all. I didn’t mean to get pregnant, but I get really stupid when I drink.” I let out a fake laugh and then sighed.

“He does like you. He is hard to read sometimes, he hides behind his jokes and it is hard to see who’s on his good side and who’s not.” She leaned forward, grabbing my hands and holding them tight. “He admires you for how strong you are. Even though he thinks that is it stupid to raise this child alone, he admires you so much for wanting to do this alone. But he can see that you need all the help you can get. Even the strong people need support.” I dared to look at her and she was smiling sweetly to me. I smiled back and squeezed her hands.

“Thank you Eleanor.” She smiled and squeezed my hands as she leaned back in the chair.

“Call me El, everyone else does.” I smiled at her and then started to think. There was something I really wanted to ask her but I didn’t want her to get mad at me.

“El…” I let go of her hands and she looked at me with kind eyes. “Can I ask you something?” She nodded and kept that beautiful smile on her face. “Is she mad at me? Danielle?” Els smile grew and she shook her head.

“Of course not darling. She is happy for Liam that he has found someone to be happy with.” If she only knew about the drama. “Actually she wants to meet you.” I looked at her with shocked eyes and nodded.


“So you’ll meet her?” El sounded happy at the thought and I nodded. Why not? She was going to be in our lives so why not just get it over with? “Great! I’ll tell and we can go out and eat sometime this week. Will that be okay? I know you’re going home on Sunday, but that is six days away.” I nodded and smiled the biggest smile ever, she was such a ball of energy that girl. She was so happy that I had agreed to meet her best friend that she didn’t know what to do with herself. And thinking of best friends, where was mine? Someone knocked on the door and I yelled for them to come in. It was Liam and my doctor.

“We have the results, Miss Hedlund.” I laughed quietly as he said my name, it sounded weird in english. I nodded and El jumped up from the chair.

“I’m going to go talk to Louis then call Danni, see you later.” I waved after her and smiled. Liam gave me a look and I mouthed a ‘later’ as he nodded.

“So is it bad or good news?” I spoke and turned towards my doctor who was standing on the other side of my bed with my clipboard. He looked up at us and smiled.

“Well it is mostly good new. Your baby didn’t have any broken bones that we can see and all your levels look fine.” He nodded to himself and wrote something on the clipboard.

“And what’s the bad news?” Liam spoke and took my hand for comfort. I thought that it couldn’t be that bad since the baby was intact.

“Well there was something that showed up in our labs and we got a little suspicious.” He put the clipboard down and put on a very professional look. “When we looked at the ultrasound we noticed something around the baby’s head and it seems like it has an small outgrowth. It’s not very big right now and if it doesn’t grow too much then we will be able to remove it when it’s born.” I let out the breath I dind’t know I was holding and Liam did the same.

“Will you be able to send these records to my hospital in Sweden? I’m not going to have the baby here and I’m going home in a week.” The doctor looked from me to Liam and then back.

“That can be arranged. You will have to go to check ups at least two times a month.” I nodded and he turned to walk out the door. “Oh and try to keep your stress level down for awhile.”

“Yeah I will.” And as on queue all of the boys as the two girls walked into the room. I laughed at the doctor’s expression. “I will try.” He sighed and then walked away.

“What are you going to try?” Louis asked and hugged El.

“I was given orders to keep my stress level down.” The girls laughed, along with Liam and me, while the rest of the boys stood there and looked confused. “Aw, you guys are so cute!”

“We are aren’t we!” Niall laughed and lifted the bag in his hands. I felt my mouth start to water and I reach out my hands. “I bring you food, your highness.” I winced at the words and mentally shook it off, he didn’t mean anything. We all started to eat, I had apparently gotten a chicken burger so I started with the fries. I looked around at all of my newly found friends and my best friend. I thought about this whole situation, the baby and Liam and Harry. I looked at Liam and he looked at me. I smiled and nodded towards our friends and he knew right away what I meant. He nodded and cleared his throat.

“Guys!” He raised his voice so that they all could here him. They all stopped eating, except Niall, and looked at us. He stood up and stood next to me as they all waited for what we were going to say. I looked at Liam and he nodded for me to say it.

“We’ve found out the sex of the baby yesterday.” They all dropped what they were holding, even Niall, and stood up.

“And what is it?” Maddie looked like she was going to burst right then and there. I grabbed Liams hand and smiled to our friends.

“We’re having a girl!” They all cheered and hugged us, saying congratz and all that. I looked at Harry who stood in the corner of the room. He was looking at his feet. He was looking sad.


I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol