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My Judgement's Clouded

You will always be my summerlove

“It’s complicated Harry.” I whispered the words to Harry.

After the million dollar question he had asked me I didn’t really know how to respond. I had studied him for a long time, coming to the conclusion that he looked scared. He looked like I felt, extremely afraid for the upcoming answer.

Now Harrys gaze fell and he was looking at the floor. I put my hand on the side of his face and made him look at me. His face tilted upwards but his eyes closed. “Harry…” With a small whisper I spoke his name. I felt him shudder as if a cold breeze just went by and then he sighed.

“I’m scared, Ross.” His eyes were still closed as he whispered a response. In any other situation I would’ve smiled at Harry, he wasn’t the first person to admit he was scared. But something deep in my heart told me he was serious. The great Harry Styles was scared of me? It just seems impossible.

“Harry… Look at me.” I watched him shake his head. I caressed him gently on his cheek and he sighed again. He lifted his hand and grabbed mine, only to turn his head slightly and kiss my palm. It sent shivers through my entire body and I stifled a small moan. He squeezed my hand and then looked up at me with his beautiful green eyes. They were edged with a slight sight of pain.

“I know I talk a lot but I really am scared right now.” I shook my head and sighed.

“I don’t understand why though…” There was a short silence.

“Because you have Liam…” His head was leaned forward so I couldn’t see his face. I sighed and put my forehead on his head.

“But I don’t know Liam…” Harrys head snapped up to look at me and then he leaned his forehead against mine. “I was so in love with you Harry.” My voice had gotten so low that I wasn’t sure if he had heard me or not.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” I let out a small laugh and then sighed at the same time.

“For the same reason you didn’t tell me, I didn’t think I was good enough for you.” My eyes were closed and we were talking to each other in hushed voices.

“How stupid aren’t we?” He laughed a little and clasped my hands.

“Depends on who you compare us to.” I smiled and took a deep breath. “Harry, I’m not sure how I…” He cut me off before I could continue.

“If you are going to burst my little bubble than can you wait awhile? I want to remember your smell…” I laughed a little louder this time and he leaned back to look at me. I opened my eyes and then my smile failed a little.

“Harry I was going to say ‘I’m not sure how I should inform you about the fact that I never stopped being in love with you.’ But if your bubble is broken I am reall-..” I couldn’t end the sentence because a pair of lips crashed onto mine. I gasped at first and then slowly relaxed into the kiss. I felt a moan deep in my throat. The kiss was long and soft, making me feel all warm and tingly inside. After what only felt like seconds someone cleared their throat making me and Harry jump apart. Harry turned around and I leaned to the side to see Niall standing in the doorway.

“Harry we need to have a band meeting in the living room, Simon has something to tell us.” Niall smiled at me and then turned to leave. Harry turned to me and grabbed my hand, kissing the back of it.

“I’ll be right back, okay?” I nodded and sighed as he walked away. This was really wrong, and I knew it. I was carrying Liams child but I wanted to be in a relationship with Harry. I shouldn’t have kissed him, but I really wanted to. Crap. I decided to sneak out in the hallway to hear what the boys were talking about. At first all I could hear was a low voice on a computer, probably Simon talking to the boys on Skype or something. When I got closer, but not close enough for them to see me, I heard him say bye to the boys.

“So I’ll see you tomorrow then. Get your beauty sleep and be ready in the morning.” The boys all said bye together and then there was silence. I was thinking about walking out but Harrys voice changed my mind.

“We promised her a week here.” He sounded mad.

“Yeah well this is what happens when you’re in a band Harry.” Liams voice was harsh and he sounded extremely hateful.

“Of course I know that, Liam, but we promised her.” I heard someone move but I didn’t look to see who. When Harry spoke again his voice was farther away so I figured he was the one that had moved. “It means something to me, I don’t like breaking promises.” I heard someone cough and Zayn spoke up.

“Yeah well Harry we need to leave. There is not much we can do about that fact.” Harry sighed and I did to. “We’re coming back in two months, she will be fine.” I hoped he was right. Yes I wanted to manage on my own but I needed Harry to talk to. I needed Liam to support me. But at the same time I wanted them to forget about me. I know I am not sane at all.

“I know she will be fine, she’s not a baby.” There was an awkward silence in the room and then Harry spoke up with a determined voice. “She’s coming with us, at least this week. She’s on holiday and we only have one concert the day after tomorrow.” I tried not to make to much sound when I gasped at what Harry had said. He couldn’t be serious. I couldn’t come with them, could I? Thankfully nobody had heard me and they continued talking.

“Fine she can come with us, but on another plane.” Louis spoke up for the first time. “We don’t want the paps finding out about this situation before we can deal with it properly.” I heard them all agree. They stayed quiet for several minutes and then the tension was broken by a very irritated Liam.

“Why isn’t it lovely that Harry can bring my babymomma with him, juuust lovely!” He spoke with a really sarcastic tone and then I heard him walking across the room. After a moment I realized he was going to walk past me if he were going to his room. I held my breath and waited for him to walk past me. He noticed me and stopped to stare at me. At first he looked mad but as the seconds went by his face turned sad and then defeated. He sighed and walked into his room.

My belly started to move a little and the baby kicked, he/she knew I had hurt its father. I hurt Liam by getting pregnant and now I had hurt him by choosing his best friend, not that I had decided to be with Harry yet. I thought about it a few minutes and then realized that he had no right to be mad. If he hadn’t told me how Harry felt then I wouldn’t have kissed him. I sighed and just kept on thinking how chaotic this situation was turning out to be. I walked into the living room where Harry, Louis, Zayn and Niall were sitting and talking with low voices. I felt like I was intruding and started to back to the door when Louis noticed me.

“Rosanna! We were just talking about you two!” He looked at me belly and I gave him a fake grin.

“Very funny…” I walked over to them and sat next to Louis and Zayn on the sofa, best to stay away from Harry right now.

“Oh don’t be so gloomy!” Louis laughed and punched my arm lightly. Just to pull his leg a little I grabbed my arm quickly after and screamed in pain. I leaned forward and kept on swearing in Swedish.

“OMG! Are you okay?” Zayn got really worried and started to rub my back when I shook my head.

“I am so sorry Ross! I didn’t think I hit that hard.” The room became quiet and it was too much for me to handle. I tried to hold in the laughter in my throat but I soon felt my entire body shake. I felt Louis move and soon he was sitting in front of me rubbing my legs. I looked up at him and I just burst.

“Hahahah! OMG, you look so bloody scared!” I kept on laughing as the other boys joined me, except Louis of course. He looked at me with open mouth and disbelief in his eyes. “Oh don’t look so gloomy, LouLou.” I winked at him and sat up straight. I looked around at the boys who were all looking at me with smiles on their faces. After awhile I started to panic, thinking I might have something on my face. “What?!” I almost screamed in a high-pitched voice.

“It is going to be so much fun having you with us in England, Louis have met his bloody match!” Niall spoke and then laughed. I looked at Louis and then Harry.

“What are you talking about?” Harry smiled and winked at me.

“We have to go back to London for a charity event and because we promised you a week you are coming with us!” He threw up his hands as if he said ‘ta-da!’ and then waited for my response.

“I don’t know Harry…” I hesitated, thinking about Liam in the other room. Harry ignored my words and kept on telling me about how fun we were going to have.

“We only have one concert and the rest of the time we can spend with you!” Louis coughed beside me and Harry corrected himself. “And Eleanor.” I laughed and looked at Louis.

“Naaw, LouLou do you miss your girlfriend?” He nodded like a child and then fake sobbed.

“But seriously, you need to come to London with us.” Harry spoke with a stern voice. “Maybe we can sort some stuff out then.” He smiled and nodded his head, he thought his excuse was really good. I sighed and shook my head.

“Fine I’ll come!” I let out a big sigh and then leaned back into the sofa. “Although on one condition.” The boys all looked at me and I turned to Zayn, feeling like he was the most responsible here. He nodded and I continued. “I need free tickets to your show for both me and Maddie.” When I spoke my best friends name Niall lit up and looked like he just now noticed all of us there. He nodded to Zayn who looked around at his friends and they all seemed to agree. “Oh, and I want backstage passes.” The boys heads snapped in my direction and they all looked a little shocked.

“Of course you’re getting backstage passes.” I smirked and decided to continue and see how far I could push them.

“Okay then I want lots and lots of Lays chips there, vinegar taste of course.” Zayn laughed and Harry just shook his head.

“You said you had one request. This is coming to be a few more, love.” I looked at Harry and gave him a ‘really’ look. He looked extremely confused and it was so bloody adorable.

“You are asking a pregnant woman to come to your show and you’re not going to give me what I crave?” Niall gasped dramatically and Zayn and Louis laughed. I looked at Harry with serious eyes and he sighed and scratched the back of his head.

“Fine you can have Lays.” He looked into my eyes and smiled. “So does that mean you’re coming?” I smiled at him and winked.

“Who can say no to Lays?"


I loved the story. The ending was so cute! :)
naaah it's fine I'm just going to be subscribed to it to save the wonderfulness lol
Naah I mean dislike very much because I ended the story ;)
Well I mean I would never hate you.... Unless I know you o.O lol