Notorious

Luke didn't reply, he didn't say anything at all, he just stared off longingly into the distance and all my arrogant confidence faded, I felt lost. After everything I had been through, I was sort of numb, I didn't feel like everyone else and I found it hard to understand other people's emotions, but Luke was a part of my family now and I hate seeing him upset.

I rocked back and forth, "wanna talk about it? I'm a good listener" I asked, placing my hand on his shoulder. I watched a tear roll down his cheek and I quickly swiped it away with my thumb.

"We grew up together" he sniffed, wiping away the tears that continued to fall. "I met Mikey and Cal in school, they were best friends. Michael hated me, and I hated him for a while, but then we all became really good friends because we shared the same love. We loved music" I rubbed his back encouragingly, determined to hear more about his past and why he was suddenly so wounded.

"Its okay Luke, you can tell me" I whispered, resting my head on his shoulder.

"Erm... We started a band, Michael came up with the name" his voice cracked as the pain surged through him. I had only been in Luke's position once before, when my dad died. I cried for weeks, and the pain, nothing hurts more than the physical pain of sadness.

"What was the band name?" I asked, offering Luke a small smile. He chuckled at the memories through his glossy eyes.

"5 seconds of summer" he cleared his throat as more tears cascaded down his face. "We needed a drummer and that's when we met Ashton. He isn't the same person anymore, he used to be so amazing and I looked up to him. Ashton was kind , generous and smart. You should of seen him play, he was so talented, no matter what instrument he picked up he could play it perfectly! Ash believed in the band more than any of us." I pulled Luke into a hug, he sobbed into my shoulder and wept for the loss of his old friend. I walked over to the wooden bench, keeping my arms securely round Luke and sat us down slowly.

He pulled away, eager to continue.

"Ashton started going to clubs with some older guys, I don't know what they did to him or what they gave him but he's never been the same since. We all shared a flat, and every time Michael was out, Ashton would bring him a girl and from his room all I could hear was horrific cries of fear! I remember the first time he convinced Calum to join in, and it changed Calum forever. Ash, Cal and some poor, poor girl went into his room. I heard her yelling at them, they just laughed at her, I panicked and ran to the door, when I opened it, she was tied to the bed and completely naked. Blood covered her chest, she tried to cry out as Calum gagged her. Ashton shoved me out and locked the door." Luke began to sob uncontrollably and my heart ached for him, he tried to compose himself and eventually he did.

" I sat against the door all night, hear her scream in terror... Oh god, how she screamed Kay, every so often I would hear Ash chuckled and instruct Calum on what to do next, the things they did..." I rubbed circles on his back, his body now shaking, clearly remembering the trauma he went through.

"The band stopped and it became a regular thing, whenever Michael was gone. Ashton disappeared for a few months, leaving Calum to do his own torturing. When Ash eventually came back, he told us he had found us a new place, really sold it to us, but it was just Victors house. The gang membership comes with the room. They were my brothers Kay...but there so evil" Luke finally broke, collapsing onto my lap and crying, like a terrified child. Luke had a good heart and was just a naive kid, following his brothers obliviously into danger.

I didn't really know how to comfort someone, so I did the one thing that cheers me up when I'm sad. I pulled out my tin, retrieving a joint and sparking it as Luke sat up. I stroked the back of his hair, in an attempt to soothe him. I handed him the blunt and he looked at me hesitantly, I gave him a reassuring nod.

"It'll help, trust me" I said as he took a deep drag.

"Thanks for listening Kay, I feel like your the only one who trusts me" his voice now weak and drained, I put my hand on his leg and smiled.

"I do trust you Luke" I replied as he handed me the joint. My high mind began to wander into thoughts of what if, because maybe, just maybe, if Ashton hadn't of fell into the wrong crowd and ended up with Victor his life would be different.

Maybe they would all be on my tv making me sing along rather than in my nightmares making me scream.

Notes

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