Through The Dark(Niall Horan)
It was so nice to see Teagan happy again. She was smiling a lot, and even giggling. I couldn't stop smiling myself. When she came back from her “date” with Alis, she was almost a completely different person. She had colored her hair and let me tell you, she looked absolutely stunning. She was a different person, she was happy.
I hope she stayed this way. I missed this Teagan. I missed being able to see her smile and hear her laugh. I missed seeing her eyes glow when she finally stopped laughing. I missed all of it. These last four months haven't been the easiest. I've been getting a lot of back lash from management for putting so much of the tour on hold, but I needed to be there for Teagan. That was all that mattered to me.
There were a lot of rumors going around Teagan and I. We did a press release saying it was personal issues and that what was best was for me to be home with her. Teagan's mum kept quiet, she didn't say a word. As it should be, after all she did to her own daughter. As for Jim, he was behind bars as far as I knew. My lawyer said it would go to trial, and Teagan would have to testify...
I hadn't told Teagan that part. I honestly didn't know how she would take it. She was terrified of Jim. There wasn't a single night she didn't wake up screaming because of a dream she had about him. She's even hit me, thinking I was him. He ruined her. He took away her innocence, her happiness. I don't know if she could face him.
Right now she was taking a bath, something she hadn't done in awhile. Honestly sometimes I'd have to force her to go take a shower, which I monitored most of the time. I knew it was starting to get on her nerves, but after finding her laying in the bathroom in her own blood; I wasn't taking anymore chances.
“Niall!” I heard her calling from the bathroom.
I grabbed my sandwich off of the counter and walked to the bathroom, poking my head in the door. “Did you need something, babe?” She was leaning against the side of the tub, crying. I rushed in, tossing my sandwich in the trash. “What's wrong? Are you alright?”
She nodded, pointing at a box of tampons on the floor. Oh, this was one of those weird female things, right?
Boy was I wrong. Turns out, she's pregnant. Or at least she thinks she's pregnant. I don't even know what to think, we used protection. I mean, yeah they don't always work but we were careful. And we've only done it once. I ran my fingers through my hair as I went through my contacts, looking for her doctors number to make an appointment.
Teagan was sitting on the bed, drinking some water after she had gotten sick. “They have an opening in an hour....we better head out soon.” I walked over and knelt down in front of her, placing my hands on her knees. “No matter what we find out today, it's going to be okay. We'll work through this, just like everything else.”
Teagan nodded, placing her hand over mine. She didn't say anything, but the smile on her face...it was the biggest I've ever seen. What was she thinking about? Was she happy she was pregnant? Did she want to have a baby? Would that make her happy?
“What are you thinking about?” I murmured, rubbing her thigh.
She shrugged. “Nothing.”
“I haven't seen you smile that big in months Teagan. That's not nothing.” I just wanted to know what she was thinking.
“I was just thinking about what it would be like to be a mother.....the mother of your children. Not someone elses...” she trailed off.
Someone elses was all I could think about. It would be someone elses if she was pregnant. There was no way it could be mine. If Teagan was pregnant, the baby would be Jim's, not mine. She would be carrying that piece of trash's baby. My girl, would be carrying someone elses baby. Someone who abused her, someone who hurt her.
But what if it was mine? What if something happened and it was mine. She was pregnant before any of this happened. I hoped and I prayed that if she was pregnant, by some sort of miracle it was mine.
After we went to the doctor and Teagan took the test, we went home and laid in bed, patiently waiting for the doctor to call with the results. She assumed it was mine, I didn't correct her. I didn't want to correct her. If Teagan was pregnant, the baby would be mine. I would be it's father, she would be it's mother. Whether it was mine by blood or not, it was going to be our baby.
Teagan snapped me out of my thoughts when she called my name. “Hm?” I kept my eyes on the ceiling.
“Do you want kids...?” She asked.
I stayed quiet for awhile, before turning my head and to look at the beautiful girl laying next to me. “I want it all. I want to get married and have kids and have a proper life. I thought it wouldn't be until later in life, but if it's going to happen right now then so be it. If it's with you, I want it. All of it.”
Teagan opened her mouth to reply, but her phone cut her off.
Don't hate me! hahah
I did it from Niall's POV to give off some information that wasn't give in the previous chapter.
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