good girls can go bad...cant they?

[A/N guys can you hurry and go down to the notes it's important love ya :) ]

Sam's pov

I ran the cold blade up my arm once again as I had done many time

I dont care anymore.

I WANT TO DIE

I ran the blade up my leg and then set my blade down next to me and watched the blood flow out of my body and it ran down my arm i felt so relief I felt in control for once

The blade my best friend yet my worst enemy.

my phone went off from a text and I looked at it

'go kill yourself fat ass no one likes you' I read

"I know that already" I said to myself and set down the phone

*End of Flashback*

I have been blasting my music all day having all different types of flashbacks the song ended and 'Say
Hello to Goodbye' by Shontelle was on

"i'm gonna go get dressed even though i'll be in my room all day" I said to myself and got up

I picked up one of my clean tank tops and some skinny jeans then slipped them on then walked into the bathroom that was connected to my room and put on a light layer of mascara I would soon mess up from tears 3 months without him 3 months of this baby growing without him 3 months of pain 3 months of my past

"hey can I come in" Justice yelled as I walked out of my bathroom

"whatever" I said as I fixed my bun she walked in and she walked in

"someone's here to visit" She said as I had my head facing the ground so I could get my bun high enough

"great" I said with sarcasm making her laugh

"well the person who's visiting is in here so i'm gonna leave" she said then shut the door

I heard someone sit down on the bed

"hold on" I said not paying attention to who it was and I ran into the bathroom and grabbed a brush

I put my hair in a high messy bun with no bumps and my side bangs hang out I brushed those to the side with my fingers and knowing someone was here I put a little foundation on then walked out of the bathroom

Harry.

I pretended like I didn't notice him yet and said

"hold on I need to do something really quick" I said then grabbed my phone and walked into the bathroom I shut the door then texted Justice (J = Justice and S = Sam)

S: SERIOUSLY JUZ!?!

J: You guys were so cute together now go talk to him and fucking make up then make out!

S: Kay you tell me when Zayn makes out with Taylor and then doesn't bother to even try for 3 months

I shoved my phone in my pocket and walked out Harry heard the door open and he turned his head then stood up

"Sam can I please explain to you what happened"

"yes were just not doing it standing up" I said then sat down

"well I was talking to El and Louis when they got drunk I took them home and when I got back I was drinking but just a little bit and Taylor came up to me and kissed me I kept pushing her away when Sel and you walked over and Sel pushed Taylor is also when I pushed her away from me" he explained

god his lips are so perfect.

fuck it i'm going for the lips.

I crashed my lips against his and he grabbed the side of my cheeks I pulled away slowly then he smiled

"so can I take that as a you forgive me"

"if I get one more kiss" I smiled he pecked my cheek then said

"good?"

"well now it's great" I smiled

"how's little one doing down there" he asked

"I don't know" I answered honestly

"haven't you gone to the doctor's at all" he asked

"yeah all the places you just saw me go is where i've been spending my time these last three months" I said turning down the radio allowing us to not talk so loud

"let's go" he said then grabbed his phone

"babe we can't ju-" he cut me off

"shh i'm on the phone" he joked around with me

"thanks captain obvious" I smiled even wider

"hi can I schedule an appointment and make it as soon as possible"he said then smiled at me

"yes that would be perfect okay thanks bye" Harry said

"when are we going" I asked

"as soon as you give me a kiss and get your shoes on" he smiled I playfully rolled my eyes and then kissed him

I got my shoes on then we walked out

"where are you going" Juz asked jumping in front of the door

"doctor's appointment duh" I said then she smiled and moved

"bye" I smiled and then Harry and I walked out

"names?" he asked

"I like Violet for a girl and a boy um Nash" I said as we got in the car

"I like those" Harry smiled and started to drive

"what do you want" I asked

"Violet or Nash" Harry smiled making me laugh a little

"Harry" I playfully hit his shoulder

"Sam" He mocked me

I laughed and then the car went silent Harry set his hand on my stomach I was starting to grow a tiny bump I smiled and he kept driving with his one free hand I put my hand on top of his and started to play with his thumb it started to rain like REALLY HARD

"woah could it rain any more" I laughed

"I don't know" Harry laughed along

"i'm turning on the ra-" I started but Harry turned on the radio first

"what if she get's uncomfortable" Harry said

"what if it's a boy" I laughed

"then would if he or she gets uncomfortable" he smiled

"not gonna take that chance" Harry said before I could do anything

"your so cheesy" I laughed as we pulled into the doctor's

"is that bad" he asked

"it's amazing" I smiled as we got out

"fuck I shouldn't of worn a tank top without bringing a coat" I said

Harry took off his and wrapped it around me "take this one" he smiled

"babe then you won't have anything" I frowned

"it's fine" he said then kissed me and then bent down and kissed my stomach

I smiled when he came up and he smiled back we walked in and then Harry told me to sit down I did as he said and sat down he walked over and sat next to me we sat in silence for a few minutes then the door opened

"Sam" a nurse said

Harry and I stood up at the same time and smiled at each other

"so what are you coming here today" she asked

"i'm pregnant" I said

"how many months" she asked and smiled at me

"3 I think" I answered

"can we just have you take off your shoes" she said pointing at my heels I took them off and then she had me come over to see how tall I was

she weighed me then she had me and Harry follow her into a room

"can you take a seat right over there and the doctor will be in in just a second" she said

"thanks" I smiled and sat where she had told me to

she walked out and the room went silent

~

"shit it's still raining" I said as we walked out and it was still pouring theres like one inch of rain on the ground

"we should get home fast" Harry said looking at the ground

"yeah" I agreed with him

we ran to the car and jumped in then we sat there for a few seconds before listening to the rain pound onto the car.

"Babe" Harry said staring in front of him

"yeah?" I asked worried about what he might say

"You know I love you right" he said then looked at me

"yeah of course I do" I said

"and you know I would do anything for you right"

he's so sweet

"yeah" I said then he smiled and smashed his lips against mine he pulled away then

He started the car then started to drive. What was that about? Of course I love him...Maybe because I didn't trust him that night he kissed Taylor.

"What was that about?" I finally got up enough courage to ask

"what was what about?" Harry said playing dumb

"You know...that" I said

"I just wanted to see if you knew" Harry simply replied

~

"YOU GUYS ARE HOME HOW DID IT GO" Perrie yelled jumping off the couch

I laughed at her reaction.

"everything is going great they said because of how small it was they couldn't tell the gender but soon enough they could tell" I said as Harry and I sat down

"anything else" Juz asked

"um did you guys notice that there's like two inches of rain outside" I said

"no but we lost WiFi" Juz frowned Harry pulled out his phone and then did something on it

"I have WiFi" Harry said as he scrolled through Instagram

"Lucky" Juz said

someone knocked on the door

"who the hell would knock on our door with this much fucking rain" I said standing up and looking through the peep hole

"oh my god Cher you're so stupid" I said pulling her in noticing there was way more water

"I needed flour" she smiled

"so you came over here when there is three fucking inches of water for flour" I held in a laugh

she smiled and then nodded

"what were you gonna make a cake or some shit" I laughed

"cupcakes, correction" she said

"just make them here we actually have something and your not going anywhere in that rain" I said then sat down

"yay" she said then ran into the kitchen

Notes

Okay guys so I know I told you I was thinking of deleting which I still am but i'm gonna let you decide with this chapter! I was at my mom's house and I swear I saw the cutest thing... So my mom's lesbian and they wanted to have the daughter another one (She's due on Valentine's Day) and they got it done at the doctor's ya know how you can do that YA OKAY so my mom was walking down the hall and she was talking and my step mom was like "what did you say babe" and my mom was like "ooh nothing just talking to the baby" so idk about you guys but that was the cutest fucking thing I have ever heard! I love you guys so much bye bitchez and once again thanks for reading my boring chapter