How Can I Live Like This?

Lani's P.O.V
I wake up in a whitish pastel coloured room with a disinfectant smell realising the stinging burning and pain surging through my body.
I can remember everything that happened. And I will not forgive anyone just because I am in this sorry state..

"Lani!!" Dani, Perrie and El yell out in unison "Hi". I reply with a hoarse voice.
"We were so worried! Are you okay do you need anything???" Dani spouting questions. "I'm *cough* fine thank you, but I need some *cough* water".
My voice is leaving and my body is aching....
My uncle.. He did it again. It was so painful, i'd be surprised if I'm not pregnant..... I mean i have been getting alot of morning sickness and my tummy has grown slightly.

And right when I didn't want to hear those words I did.
"You are her family right?" I could hear a doctor talking to someone or a group of people. "Yes we are" A farmiliar boys voice. Then the girls remained when the boys walked out the room. "Well.... I don't know how to say this but.... She's pregnant". Right when i hear those words I shoot up and get out of the hospital bed "PREGNANT I CAN'T BE PREGNANT! *cries insanely* Everyone backs off "No..... I never.. no" I run. All I think to do is run.

I can hear medics calling me and chasing me, but as I look back I can only see one thing.. Niall he's chasing me trying to catch up I run into the womens bathroom and lock myself in a stall..
"Allana please come out! Don't do this!" He tries to console me but he shouldn't waste his breath. "No.... I DIDN'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN! Why did he do this to me....... I never wanted it...." And I just realise that I have said too much.
"ALLANA WHAT IS GOING ON?" Niall yells out in a sad tone. "I'll take it from here Niall just go back to the room". It was Perrie "Lani i'm coming in" Why , why should you come near a disgrace like me, i am filthy.. Tears still flowing from my eyes.
"Can you open the door? " I do so as if it were a command, she lifts me up and embraces me as if I were her child, stroking my hair slightly "Ohh Lani.. Why didn't you tell me? You know I would listen to you and try to help". She is like a comfort machine. "Please tell me why you did it? I know I won't understand but I can help.. Or atleast try..." With a small tear trickling down my cheek bone I just break down and tell Perrie everything.

Perrie's P.O.V
I can't believe it... So that is why whenever her uncle tried to touch her shed move away or puch him away, HE HAS BEEN RAPING HER FOR 4 YEARS FOR PETES SAKE! I cannot believe this has been going on for so long and we thought she was just having a bad week the last time we saw her.

I am sitting on the hospital bed Lani's head resting on my lap.
I'm like a mother to her, it is really reassuring to know she can trust me with this information.
But.. Still this is beyond terrible...
"And it still hurts.. Knowing anytime he can run in the door and hurt me. I can't handle it he scares me". Lani still struggles to actually talk due to her tears.
"Darling, you could have just told me, you know I would listen and help". And i will kill her uncle.. "It's ok now, we are here to help" I just notice her leg and how she could run.

"Lani what about your leg?? Is it hurting?". The doctor said she might not be able to walk for a while "No" She replies "Just a little bit". She is still so strong, after all that has happened..

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