”Can you make tea for me while I do the laundry?” I asked Harry desperately hoping he would say yes. Yesterday was a great day. We finally told each other how we feel and now everything is perfectly fine – and we’re officially together… Well, we just need to make it official to the others at home as well. We’ll take that when the time comes!

Last night we went out on a dinner with our teachers, which was really funny and inspiring. We heard many funny stories about their past and how they competed in different live shows when they were younger. We even heard a story or two about their teenage love lives! When the dinner ended, I and Harry went out for a walk in a huge park in the city. Unfortunately it was really REALLY cold and I was only wearing a dress, some boots and my leather jacket- totally dumb of me I know. I must have been out of my mind when I packed at college! I paid my price, I had to listen to Harry talking about how stupid it was of me and how sick I could get and that I probably would get the flu very soon. I – as always – didn’t want to give him right and was hundred percent sure that I wouldn’t get cold. Me? Getting sick? That happens like.. N e v e r..


But..

Reality hit me hard this morning when I woke up shaking, freezing like never before. It has been cold these days especially because of the amount of snow where we live..

As soon as I opened my eyes I felt like my head was spinning and it hurt badly. In the beginning I tried to hide it to Harry because it was simply too awkward admitting he was right. He would brag about it every single hour or at least use it against me in every situation or discussion. He luckily took it very calm and didn’t seem to talk big about it which I had feared. He even cuddled up next to me, making sure I was warm.

“Of course. Whatever you like. That’s what you get for not wearing proper clothes “ he said cheekily..

Damn it – I knew he would use it against me sooner or later. I had to give him payback at some point. At this time I just didn’t know how or when.

“Harry, don’t be a tease. I’m actually very sick” I said with the saddest voice I could. I tried playing on his feelings hoping it would make “his heart melt” so he could take care of me.

“Well whose problem is it?” he said now looking serious at me. - Was he kidding? Why couldn’t he for once give up!


Come up with something Annabelle. Come up with something, find your inner bitch!!

“Well.. Yours obviously. You didn’t even offer me your jacket or anything”! I smirked and made a disappointed face that made him open his mouth. It was formed like an “o” – he was clearly shocked by my payback but something made me think that he actually took it personally.

“You’re right. I’m a bad person. Sorry” he said and embraced me closely. Woah, had I already won the game? OH YEAH!!

“But.. You’re still the sick idiot here!” he laughed as he gave me his silly face expression while sticking his tongue out. (The face he does like 70 % of the time) I couldn’t do anything but laugh at it. He simply got me every time with that expression. I totally loved it ! I punched him and walked towards the kitchen counter to make some tea now that Harry apparently didn’t want to.
He hugged me from behind and whispered sorry into my ears. I pretend like nothing happened and focused on my tea.

“What are our plans for today?” he then asked when I took a sip from the cup.

“Well. We’re going home tomorrow morning. I think we definitely should go skiing. I haven’t tried it and the view here is so amazing!” I said optimistically while drinking my tea. Harry on the other hand looked at me like I was the biggest idiot on earth.

“We shouldn’t be outside when you’re sick. Your flu will only get worse love” he said looking worried.

Aw.

He was such a sweetie and the smile he sent me made me feel warmer than what the tea made me feel. Amazing, I much-loved feeling his love.


“I appreciate the fact that you’re thinking of me and my health but I really want to go and I don’t care if I have to lie in bed the next three weeks! I just want to have a great last day with you and making memories that we can have to ourselves without anyone else disturbing us” I replied, asking him for a hug. He as I thought – didn’t hesitate and hugged me as he planted a kiss on my lips.
I looked up adoring his big eyes, which now were dark green. I knew I would get lost if I kept focusing in them but I just couldn’t stop myself. He smiled as he again kissed me, giggling in between the kisses.

“You’re going to get sick as well ... Who is the bigger idiot now?” I joked and left him standing there in the kitchen all alone. He could feel ridiculous just as he had made me feel minutes ago. 2-1 baby!



I tried to find some comfortable clothes to wear before we went skiing. I found my big sweater, a huge beanie and the warmest gloves I owned. Harry was already ready and looked like Santa in his outfit. He literally looked like he had gained 20 pounds.



“So are you ready? You’re sure you want to do this? Just tell me if you feel sick or something, okay? He looked – as what I could see from behind my skiing glasses – serious. I appreciated that he was so concerned but I really wanted him to just let go.

“Harry please. Don’t think about it. I’m here to have fun and let go. Today we’re doing YOLOs okay?”

“If you say so missy. - Y O L O “He yelled raising his hand in the air . He totally looked awkward but I ignored it and took the first step with my ski.
I think the last time I skied was when I was 11 years old. As we glided down the big mountain I kept thinking what the hell I was doing here. I was afraid of falling but I wanted to be brave and conquer my fear, which was really easy when I had a person like Harry next to me. He was astonishingly good and even far ahead me. We stopped up to take some pictures and continued skiing until Harry suddenly fell on his bum. He lay in the snow for minutes while I laughed my ass out – coughing in between though. He looked so funny and the way he fell was indescribable. What I don’t understand at all is how he managed to ski into a tree!? That was probably the funniest moment in my life!

“You are such a clumsy fool! Who is the biggest idiot Harry, seriously?” I asked still laughing.

“Sorry, I don’t speak dumb-ish” he said ironically as he tried to get up from the snow. His butt had made a circle-spot in the snow so he fought getting up. – Hilarious!

“You are so funny when you’re annoyed. You idiot. Come here” I took off his helmet. Mine was already off from when he fell.
I pressed our lips and they immediately connected perfectly. I wanted him to feel comfortable around me even in awkward situations. Harry has this thing where he wants and needs to be better than everyone in everything and he has difficulties admitting when he’s wrong or not the best at something, so I know how embarrassing it is for him admitting that I AM better at skiing due to the fact that I only fell once – he on the other hand was up on a scale that said 10!!

“I love you even though you’re not perfect at everything, okay? It’s okay not perfect “ I said looking him in the eyes.

“I know. But it is really important to me being good and accepted by everyone. You know my..

“Insecurities I know. We all have them.. And it’s okay Harry. you’re perfect the way you are”.

“I wish everyone felt like that. Or at least my father” he said not looking at me. His eyes pointed to the snow on the ground. I have no idea how this ski trip ending up being so serious, emotional and suddenly about his father and their “relationship.” I didn’t know Harry still thought so much about him. He left him when he was 7, saying Harry and his mother weren’t good enough for him. Since then he has been feeling that he has to be perfect and good at everything. Not everyone knows this side of Harry but im more than happy that he’s sharing it with me. He’s not arrogant at all – even though people tend to mistake him with it. He’s the most caring person.. But the thing with his father is just getting on him sometimes. Especially today.

“Sorry I didn’t want to ruin this experience i'm sorry for ruining the mood" I said after some seconds of awkward silence.

“You don’t have to be. I’m glad you’re here for me.

“Always have been. Always will be.” I smiled.

“Pinky promise?” he smiled and took off his glove.

“Pinky promise” I nodded and sent him a smile as we made the sign.

“Let’s go back it’s getting cold here” he said taking my hand at the same time.



“I’ll make dinner if you pack some of our clothes?” he smiled cheekily as if he already knew me answer. Of course I would pack his stuff, Harry was probably the worst packer of all times and he’s the messiest person I know which can be an obstacle sometimes because I’m perfectionist when it comes to that.. But, as everyone knows; being in a relationship means accepting each other’s flaws and mistakes and when you find a guy like Harry, who accepts your worst mistakes, then you absolutely need to keep him. .And that is exactly what I will do.

- This boy has seriously too much clothes. He has shopped for so much money as if we were in New York and not Stockholm. I don’t even dare thinking of how much money he spends every month on clothes but that is just Harry. According him he always spends money because "you cant wear the same outfits for the rest of your life” – yeah, like that’s what he’s going to do if he not shops every day -.- Luckily he can afford it and as long as he’s not throwing out my clothes to have room for his, i'm happy.
-B ut no seriously the clothes is all on the floor, I have to get it done so we can just pick up our luggage when we have to fly in the morning.

“Love,dinner is ready” I heard Harry yell from the kitchen. Wow already? Well I managed to pack everything besides toilet stuff and some of my new clothes but I was pretty surprised by how fast I was. - "I’m coming” I said, I just nedded a break. I literally was sweating, hopefully it would make the flu go away faster. As I walked into the kitchen the first thing I noticed was the candle lights on the table and the bottle of my favorite wine – surprise surprise !

“Woah” I said walking towards the table. The decoration of the food was amazing. “You’ve done a great job honey” I said probably sounding surprised. I truly was taken away by his skills in the kitchen.

“Thank you take a seat love” he rolled the chair out and I gladly sat there looking at the dish like it already was my favorite. As I thought, the dinner tasted heavenly. He was a great cook and I was amazed by how many skills he had.

“ I know you hate when you’re not good at everything but you truly are good at almost everything” I admitted when we talked about the theme again.


He coughed..

“It’s warming that you’re so supportive and I really appreciate it. You’re one of the few people I trust by heart and I really don’t know what to do without you” . He took my hand and squeezed it across the table. I lifted my glass up and smiled - “Cheers to our amazing relationship, for this great trip and for the last night in Sweden”

“Cheers my love” he answered with his rusky voice.

“Now.. Everything’s finished I think we should either go sleeping or just. Watch a movie?”

“Harry? are you kidding me? Remember what I said earlier? YOLOOOO! We’re going to run outside in nothing but bathing suits and run into the spa, okay?

It has been a dream of mine since I was 15 years old. Ive wanted to do that so badly and now that I finally have the chance i'm totally gonna set a "check" on my bucket list.

“Well if you insist why not. But its not appropriate when your’re sick” he said once again counding like a dad. Funny, 'cause that was usually Liams position, not his.

“Dude nothing’s appropriate but we are not getting any younger. Let's have fun for once and just let go! " I insisted desperately.

“Fine, take off your clothes “ he demanded looking cheeky as hell.

Now we’re talking Styles


“Fuuuuuuuck” he exclaimed as he ran outside in the cold December snow. We were totally out of our minds and comfort zones but it’s moments like these that make life worth living. I live for the moments where you let go and just have fun. We ran like two bastards and even though I felt the cold getting worse, I ignored it as much as I coud. I didn’t want it to ruin my last day with my amazing boyfriend. I pushed Harry so he fell on the butt in the snow,. He dragged me with him so I laid on top of him in the snow. We were so crazy for doing this just as if we were 12 year old kids but as mentioned , if you don’t let go now when will you?

We couldn’t stop laughing, even though it was dark outside and there were - 4 degrees we still had fun.
"Seriously run in 3,2 1 - NOW! " he yelled as soon as we got up again.

JUMP!! I yelled while jumping in the spa. The heat took over my body, like I was in heaven. Damn it was nice feeling the heat. Harry got closer to me and held his arms around my waist. He pulled me into him and I felt the heat from his body too. His heartbeat was insane and I feared HE would get the flu too if we continued this.

“Are you okay?”

“I’m always okay when I’m with you”

“No seriously Harry, are you okay?”

“I.. am” he sneezed, causing me to laugh.

“You’re totally gonna get the flu” I giggled

“Well If I absolutely have to get it, I’ll have it from you then” he whispered as his lips neared mine. They touched mine softly. My hands played with his hair while our tongues fought with dominans. Even though I enjoyed being in the spa, the cold seemed to take over a bit.

“Do you mind if we go inside?” I whispered into his ear

“No not at all. Are you okay love?

“I am. It was mine idea and I’m glad you were on it ! I said as I took his hand and followed him inside. The towels that were on the floor were just enough to make us dry but as soon as we got into our room we turned up the radiator.

“I'm freezing idiot, i'm totally gonna get cold tomorrow” he fake cried as he put on a shirt.

“Sorry” I said giving him the puppy look. It got him(almost) every time.

“So it wasn’t a bad idea?”

“Not at all it was fun and nice to let go for once. Not thinking about anything but you and me”

“I agree” I smiled and went to the bathroom. As I returned to the bed Harry was sleeping under two duvets. Pure him I hoped he wouldn’t get sick by the night. I jumped in the bed and snuggled into him, feeling how warm his body already was.


“This is not a bad thing thing at all" he mumbled.

“No not at all. Thank you for an amazing week. I love you more than anything” I said squuuezzing his hand.

“ I love you even more. Thank you for everything you are my number one and I will never forget this experience with you.

I was so tired and the thought of us getting up in the morning was killing mee.

FUCK
"Don’t forget to turn on the alarm clock Harry! Holy.. I could jus imagine Stinson facial expression if we didn't get up at the right time. I even forgot to answer her text message eariler.

“ Is there any chance that we can stay here without the teachers?” he laughed.

"Good night Harry and by the way - the meal was lovely" I confessed. I was seconds from falling asleep (even thuogh I was literally about to get a heart attak because of the stupid alarm clock)


"Anything for you love. Good night and sleep tight"

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