*Haley’s POV*

Zayn and I took every other route to dancing around the topic of my father until we left.Once Zayn left to go warm up the car, Mum wouldn’t stop bragging about him.“I see the way that he looks at you Haley… Don’t ever let him get away.” She smiled and hugged me one last time before she let me follow suit with Zayn.The boy that I rode to Berrywood with was not the same boy that drove me home.This one was much calmer and much more laid back – the way that he should have been on the way there.I realized that he was glad that Mum liked him, but in all honesty, all that I could do from this point on was get more nervous.Seeing my mother was the easy part; it was the next day that I was worried about.

It was well passed dinner time when we got back to the hotel, so we decided to go out for a bite to eat.Zayn really wanted to take me somewhere nice, but I decided on a pub instead.Due to my choice in venue, Zayn waited on me this time – stomach growling – so that I could change into a three quarter length sleeved, sunset orange jumper and some skinny jeans and white gladiator sandals.Zayn was absolutely whining to leave by the time I closed the bedroom door and started to transfer everything to one of my hand bags.

“Babe!I feel like Ni!I really think that I’m going to die!”

“Oh shut up,” I smiled and pressed the button for the elevator.Feeling a hand on my wrist, I willingly let Zayn pull me around and plant a kiss to my mouth.When his lips didn’t retract, I moved mine to get him going.We heard the ding of the elevator, but his hands held tight to my waist and he slowly began to back me up into the elevator.He grabbed my hips slightly and I gasped.Zayn being an opportunist, he took full advantage, easily sliding his tongue into my mouth.My hands ran through the back of his hair but he was passed arguing the ‘no hair’ rule with me.I thought his hair looked better messy anyways.

When we exited the elevator, the volume became about three thousand times louder… Probably because that was the number of screaming girls jam packed into the lobby of our hotel.I gave Zayn an astonished look.“Love, just because they weren’t expecting us to leave doesn’t mean that they don’t catch on when we’re gone.”I blushed at his logic once again and followed him through the crowd that hotel security had begun to control.I glanced behind us and saw another possible reason that the girls were screaming… the elevator was glass… and we were fairly preoccupied the entire way down.You’ve got to be kidding me.Our rental car was waiting for us outside with the keys already in the ignition.Zayn tipped the valet and we both slid into the car.I questioned how safe Zayn’s driving could possibly be because I thought that I may have been temporarily blind and deaf from all of the screaming and camera flashes.

“Did you see the fans before we got to the bottom of the elevator?”We were stopped at a traffic light and Zayn looked over at me, surprised that this would be the first thing for me to bring up.

“Of course not,” he lied, a smirk pulling at the corner of his mouth.

“Bullshit.”He looked at me, seeming to wonder why I cared.“We just made out in front of hundreds of your fans…”

“Why does that matter?You think that someone won’t get the picture of the kiss at our wedding?”Now speechless, I struggled to find words.No fair.You’re not allowed to bring up the ‘w’ topic when I’m trying to be mad at you.I slumped back in my seat as the light turned green and he began driving again.“The only important thing is that the only person they’ll ever see me kissing is you.”He reached over and grabbed my hand, squeezing it tightly with reassurance.

~

“Bar, booth or table?” the waitress asked Zayn.I was trying my hardest to tell myself that I was just being paranoid and that she wasn’t really only paying attention to him, but let’s be honest now… it’s Zayn.We don’t go anywhere without someone recognizing him.Tonight, I would probably eat food that had spit in it by the looks that our waitress was giving me.

“Table for two please,” was the only response that Zayn offered.

“No bar?” I whispered in his ear.He only let a low laugh rumble in his chest as he took my hand and began leading me through the sections of tables, following the flirt who was making it a point to add a little extra swing in her hips.We sat down and my stomach churned slightly, tonight was the last night that I wouldn’t recognize my father’s face.I remembered what he looked like – no doubt – but my mental image was so much worse now.The thought of him being toughened up in prison – graying hair, maybe a few new tattoos and wrinkles – was a horror to me, knowing how terrible he already was going in.I was brought out of my nervous state by the sweet sound that was Zayn’s voice.

“We don’t eat out very often,” he smiled at me, “I’d rather be looking at you, not some other girl… especially when the only thing that she does for me is pours my drink.”His eyes left mine as he looked around the pub.

*Zayn’s POV*

I wasn’t sure why, but I kept getting this feeling that I was being watched.Hell, I probably was.Whether I wanted to admit it or not, my privacy went out the window after the X Factor.Everyone knew who I was if they took the chance to notice that I was among them, but there was more of an unsettling feeling this time.“So, that waitress…”

“Yeah Hay, I noticed.”I grinned at her jealousy.“Again, I’d rather see you moving back and forth.”She turned a bright shade of pink at my suggestive comment as I winked at her, grabbing her hand over the table.We fell into a motionless, uncomfortable silence.“What’s up Haley?”She didn’t meet my eyes as she shrugged.“No… You’re never this quiet around me.”I dipped my head down and peered up at her through my lashes, knowing that that always got her to talk to me.”

“It’s just that…” she let out a long sigh.“Every moment that I don’t get to see my mum sucks.”I just smirked slightly and let my eyebrows furrow.

“We just went and saw her today.”

“Yeah I know… I don’t miss her yet, but every moment that I don’t see her is a step closer to seeing him.”I looked down to my lap, now realizing her reasoning for being so quiet.I nodded my head slightly and rubbed the back of her hand with my thumb before grabbing her other hand from across the table.

“Haley, you know that I’m going to be there with you every step of the way – through the good and the bad and the ugly.This is just part of the ugly, but we’ll get through it together.”She smiled and nodded at me solemnly and pressed on a fake smile.I wasn’t sure if my words had convinced her – she obviously felt strongly about it – just like I couldn’t be convinced that someone didn’t have their eyes glued to me at this very moment.I just couldn’t shake the feeling.

~

We dropped the car back off with the valet, but neither of us were quite ready to turn in for the night.Instead, I took Haley’s hand in mine and lead her back towards the restaurant.We turned off of the sidewalk and onto an earthier path leading to a park that I had seen the last time that we drove by.It wasn’t as much of a swing-set-and-slides park, but more of a walking path.It was a few months after Christmas, but still fairly chilly outside, so the trees lining the path were covered in a thousand lights.Slinging my arm over Hay’s shoulder, I softly began to hum into the night.I was about half way through the song and I stopped.Haley wasn’t walking with the lenient step that she always had.I stopped walking too and let my grip slide to her wrist, spinning her around and smashing my lips to hers.It took her a second before she responded, but I could tell that her mind wasn’t in it.

“Babe, what’s wrong?”She crossed her arms over her chest and would anywhere except for my eyes.Slipping my finger under her chin, I lifted her eyes to meet mine.

“Zayn I’m scared.”With those three words, a single tear slid down Haley’s cheek as she moved quickly to try and wipe it away.I pulled her into my chest and rocked her gently back and forth.“It’s been so long…”

“Haley its okay to be scared… Everybody gets scared sometimes.I’ll be there every step of the way.”I kissed the top of her head and held her until she calmed down.She peered up at me through puffy, brown eyes and long black eyelashes.

“You know, you’re not too bad Malik.”Then she did something that I never thought that she would do… She ruffled. My. Hair.I shoved my hands down into my pockets and looked to the side.

“If you touch my hair again,” I playfully threatened, “I’m going to come after you.”I looked down at her to see her in a false state of thought.Looking up, she ran her hand across my hair again and then turned to run.At first I thought that she might turn around and come back, and I was pretty behind when I realized she wasn’t.

It didn’t take me long to catch up to Haley in the dark of the park – no pun intended.I turned her around and leaned down just enough to grab the back of her thighs and haul her up to wrap her legs around my waist.I connected our lips as I walked further into the woods until Haley let a small ‘oomph’ sound into my mouth as her back went into the trunk of a tree.Instead of letting her down, I pinned her waist between mine and the tree, encouraging her hands into my hair – hey, she wanted them their in the first place.She smiled into the kiss as she realized that she gotten her wish.I reached down and squeezed her bum, taking full advantage once her mouth opened with a gasp.

I chuckled lightly but then stopped.I pulled away from Haley and turned my head from side to side, scanning what little I could see.Looking back to Hay, she had the most bummed expression painted on her face.“What is it?” she tried to follow my eyes with little success.I thought that this feeling would’ve shaken off after we left the restaurant, but it didn’t.It couldn’t have been because the crowd of people, because we were the only ones out here.Maybe I just belong in that hospital.I tried to shake it off and looked back to Haley who was obviously pouting.Once last kiss landed on her lips and I made sure to only barely brush them before I took her hand and began leading her back towards the path.“Why are we leaving?” she hugged my arm as we walked.“I was having fun.”I looked down to find her smiling at me cheekily.

“It’s just getting late, that’s all.”I tried to remain sounding as calm as I could, but even I could still hear the tint of worry in my voice as we continued the way from which we came through downtown streets.

*Haley’s POV*

Rinsing the rest of the face wash off of my face, I couldn’t think about the awkward silence as we were walking back to the hotel.Zayn’s normally quiet, but the quiet between us isn’t normally that deafening.Honestly, our activities in the park were surprisingly distracting, but without that distraction, I could count each moment that brought us closer to tomorrow.

Turning off the water, I silently stepped from the shower and rung my hair out with a towel before I covered myself in the white fluff and walked out of the bathroom.I could feel Zayn’s eyes on me as I stood in front of the mirror, brushing out my hair and then running my fingers through it.Going to sit down on the bed, I fidgeted with the radio until I found a station that was playing something good.‘Beneath Your Beautiful’ started playing and I couldn’t help but just sit there and listen to it.I jumped slightly but quickly relaxed as I realized that it was Zayn’s breath on my neck.He left soft kisses there before pulling me backwards to lie on the bed.Chills ran up and down my spine as I felt his lips on my hip bone, only held in by skin.

“Lucky for you, you’re beautiful on the inside and out.”I pity laughed at his cheesiness and gasped as his teeth just barely caught the skin on the side of my breast.He began kissing and sucking at my neck and collar bones.Much to my surprise, he suddenly stopped.“Love, what’s wrong?”He was hovered over me now… When did this happen?

“What do you mean?”

“No, don’t give me that… I’ve hit your sweet spot like three times and nothing.Something’s distracting you.”This is when it hit me that I was totally getting nervous about seeing my dad tomorrow while Zayn was trying to ‘lay me down’ tonight.I blushed crimson as I was sure that I shouldn’t be thinking about that right now, but the blush quickly faded when I realized that it didn’t matter – I was still going to be nervous and distracted either way.

“I was just thinking…”

“Oh God.That never leads anywhere good,” he laughed.I jokingly smacked his chest and rolled over to face the opposite direction.“No Babe, for real.What’s gotten to you?”He peppered soft kisses across my shoulder.“Is it something I did?”

“No, not at all,” I stayed quiet for a minute before I felt a glassy sheet cover my eyes.“Why do I even want to go tomorrow?I have nothing to say to him – no reason to see him.”Zayn wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me into his chest, resting his hand on my side and slowly tracing the scar with his fingers.

“Maybe,” I hadn’t realized how close his face was to my ear, “deep down inside, you just want answers: the who and the why and the how come?You may think that you have nothing to say to the man, but he’s still your dad – a bloody terrible one at that, but your dad none the less.Your heart must want some answer that you haven’t figured out yet.”I sat there and thought about it for a minute or two.Then I realized… if I walked into that prison tomorrow, only being able to ask one question, I knew what it would be.If you hated Mum, then how did I come to be?If that was answered, then I had no reason to be troubled or nervous, because I knew that Zayn would be there with me every step of the way.

Turning in Zayn’s arms, I leaned up to press a sweet kiss to his lips.I let the towel fall loosely around my body.I ran my hands up and down his bare chest as his rubbed and prodded my sides.Our lips began moving in sync as Zayn’s hand traced down my side, my thigh and then hooked around my knee.Without a moment’s hesitation, I was suddenly lifted in the air and set back down over Zayn’s lap, a leg on each side of him.He stared at the all that was me, the towel being completely left behind.My cheeks blushed crimson with the fact that I was naked on top of him and never had been before.

Feeling him harden beneath me, I gave him a look telling him that I had absolutely no idea what to do.Zayn bucked his hips to lift me as well as he moved further up the bed so that his head was to the backboard.Doing the only thing I knew how to, I leaned down and kissed him passionately, granting his tongue open entrance.I gasped slightly when I felt his hands snake around to the back of my thighs and take a firm hold of my bum.At first he pulled me closer to him and then rolled my hips backwards away from him again.It happened a few times before he groaned into my mouth.My face was hot with flush when I realized what he was having me do to him.I was glad that our lips were connected so that he couldn’t see how alien this was to me.

After awhile, he stopped the movement and brought his hand between my legs.A finger was put into me as he palmed me simultaneously.He found the sweet spot on my neck and I moaned into the otherwise quiet room.My walls began clenching around him and I couldn’t take it anymore.Knowing that I was just about to cry out from my coming high, Zayn pulled his fingers out of me.“Not yet.”

Encouraging me to sit up on my knees, Zayn slid off his boxers from underneath me.I bit my lower lip, looking for Zayn’s eyes to guide me.One hand taking hold of his erection and the other taking hold of my waist, Zayn place his head at my entrance and waited for me to move the rest of the way.Once he was fully inside of me, his hands went back to my bum and he began moving me over him once again, but it was different this time – obviously.I smiled to myself, feeling childish for being worried over something so simple.My smile quickly faded when the not so simple part happened.Zayn’s double grip on my waist tightened, keeping me from sitting down on top of him again.Instead, he thrusted up into me, making me cry out.That wasn’t the end of it.I was rendered helpless as he continuously pounded the same spot over and over.Ending as soon as it started, Zayn began moving me just as quickly up and down his shaft.

Zayn threw his head back, biting his lip so hard I was sure that it would bleed.I was moving fast enough that the sounds we made pushed me over the edge.“Fu…uck..Haley…” he moaned as his erection twitched and he began filling me.I stopped with him deep inside of me and I began slowly rocking back and forth, making sure that we both rode out our climaxes.Leaning down to kiss the tanned skin of my lover, I passionately kissed his neck.With sudden strength, Zayn lifted me off of him and I crumbled into his chest.“You were amazing Love.”I smiled, loving that we didn’t just go to sleep after sex.

“That was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be?”He pulled me in tighter.

“Why’d you think it would be hard?”I leaned over to kiss his bare skin.

“I’ve never been on top before.”I could feel myself blush as he laughed slightly.

“Well you think too much anyways.”He kissed my hair as I playfully smacked his chest.

“Well I think that I need to make a run for a refill in the morning or we’ll have a little Zaley running around.”Zayn’s muscles tensed slightly at the thought of a baby.

“Good thought,” he struggled to say and all I could do was laugh at him.He kissed my head again before wiggling around to get comfy.“Goodnight Angel,” he whispered, “I love you.”

“I love you too,” was all that I could say back.Soon, his soft snores filled the room.Yes, Zayn distracted me for a little while, but there was nothing to distract me now, and every thought in my head was filled with tomorrow’s plans.

~

I jumped slightly as I heard the knock on the bathroom door against the sound of the rushing water.“Babe, if you spend much longer in there you’ll turn into a prune!” Zayn shouted through the door.

“Five more minutes!” I pleaded through the door.I skipped shaving but was ready to use it as an excuse to just sit under the water.Feeling a bit childish, I sat on the floor of the tub and ran the bar of soap over my shoulders and chest over and over again – I could not bathe for a month and still be clean after this.I closed my eyes and leaned against the wall of the shower, knowing that I needed to get out soon.Getting up off of the floor, I squirted some face wash into the palm of my hand and began humming to myself, desperate for a distraction.

Once I was out and in my towel, I walked out to find that Zayn had already put clothes on the bed for me to wear.“What’s all this?”

“If you’re anywhere near as nervous today as I was yesterday, we wouldn’t be getting out of here until two this afternoon.I rolled my eyes and walked over to evaluate what he had picked out.

“The visiting hours aren’t even starting until eleven.”

“Haley, it’s already ten thirty and it’ll take us a half an hour to get there.”I shrugged my shoulders and clasped my bra before pulling on my top and slipping on my orange skinny jeans and floral top.

“Okay Mum, be ready in ten.”

“Hey,” Zayn wrapped his arms around the back of my waist, “don’t get smart with me.”He kissed my neck and instantly hit my sweet spot.I let a little sound of pleasure escape my mouth and turned in his arms, connecting our lips almost instantly.We moved in sync for a short amount of time before he held me out at arms length.“Stop procrastinating.”I couldn’t help but giggle at his attempt at a serious glare that quickly turned into a smile.He pecked my lips once more before slowly retreating from the room.

~

We were almost there and I was sure that I was scratching the leather interior with my nails.They hadn’t stopped tapping since we were halfway there and I had run out of things to do.Zayn had a hold of one hand and was driving with the other, but I didn’t even think about it – the nerves were too much.My eyes were opened, but I wasn’t seeing anything, just blurs rushing by.I couldn’t feel Zayn’s hand around mine, the heat from the vent blowing on me or how terribly my shoes were hurting my feet.The only thing that I felt or saw was nervousness and anxiousness.

When we finally pulled up to old Holloway prison, nervous didn’t begin to cover it – I was closer to sickliness.Zayn came around to my side of the car but I didn’t notice.I was too busy looking out the windshield and up at the tall building that entrapped those who were prosecuted and found guilty – just like my dad.Zayn finally hauled me out of the car, but then stopped pushing, realizing that this really wasn’t his territory nor was it his area of expertise.He allowed me to linger and hold his hand in a death grip as we meandered up to the visitors’ door.Stepping through the threshold, I can’t tell you how much I wanted to turn back, but I had already come this far – not to mention I had dragged Zayn this far – and I knew that retreat wasn’t an option.Once we were through the doors and out of the cold morning’s air, Zayn pulled me off to the side, taking both of my hands and looking deep into my eyes.“Haley, you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to…”

“I need to.”I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, not allowing myself to escape that easily.With a tight grip still on Zayn’s hand, I walked the two of us up to the front desk and waited for the secretary sitting there to acknowledge us.She looked up with an expression leaning towards friendly.

“May I help you?” I returned the genuine gesture, giving Zayn’s hand a light squeeze.

“Yes, I’m here to see my father, Alexander Nixon?”She suddenly looked up from her computer.

“So you must be Haley?”I smiled and nodded.“You send all of those checks?”I gave another small nod, smile fading slightly.She looked back to her computer and her fingers began flying across the keys.“He’s a very sweet man,” her eyes were still on the screen, searching for information.She seemed very genuine but even I heard Zayn scoff from beside me.Then her eyebrows furrowed slightly as she scanned the screen.“Uh… I thought that I heard something about his release…”All of the blood rushed from my face.She looked up from her screen and adjusted her glasses on the bridge of her nose.“Yes, he was released a few days ago actually.”

Notes

Sorry it took so long everyone! Wasn't expecting 100 votes to come so quickly haha! I also took some time this morning - keeping in mind I'm in the US - to write a reflection on Channel 4's Documentary... I'm going to post it as a one shot and it'll be called Here's to the Directioners. It's just my personal opinion on the documentary, but you don't have to read it... I tried to put a little bit of my humor into it and idk if it worked, but oh well. I would've put it here, but it would've made my notes ridiculously long sooo... yeah.

Okay, off of that topic... CLIFFHANGER!!! Anyone see it coming? My best friend helped me come up with this idea for the story. She's an idea genius, but refuses to write a story of her own :) Wtf is Haley going to do knowing that her dad's back out there... uhhh... omgomgomgomg! the next update comes at 110 lol prob sooner but this actually gives me the chance to write it out haha! comment, rate, subscribe and please check out Here's to the Directioners :)
xoxo Hannah <3