Even Princesses Cry (on hold)
Reality and fantasy
Isabelle's pov
Its 3:30 in the morning in London. Most are sleeping others are watching tv silently . Now what am I doing? Still trying to cope between reality and fantasy.
I'm in my flat with my room mate Valarie on tumblr. We are currently obsessing over the fact that in tomorrow we will meet our idols. Valaries parents (the doctor and the lawyer ) bought us tickets and meet and greets to see non other than... One Direction. Thats what you get when your daughter and adoptive daughter are BOTH valedictorian. ( graduates at the highest of your graduating class so like a 4.0 every single year since like 6th grade) The boys are coming to San Diego tomorrow I mean their already at the hotel but we get to meet them and their concert is tomorrow. I'm so happy and thrilled which is a rare emotion for me. So currently I'm bitterly smiling at the picture of Niall Horan with his braces off.
My phone vibrates in my pocket I look at the ID and see this Nollie (i: Isabelle n:noelle )
N: hey lovelie how are you? You excited to see the boys tomorrow?
I sigh couldn't think of anything creative to text me could you?
I: yes actually I'm pumped to see the boys what time are you coming over to meet us?
N: well our seat are next to each other so maybe we could just meet up at the concert sound good?
I: sure
N: well my kitten have you been to see Dr.Ried this week?
I: Nollie you know I don't like talking about my therapy ... And yes I did go this week is was quite depressing why?
N: just wanted to make sure my kitten was alright!
I: well princess kitten paws is alright and safe! And princess kitten paws is going to sleep goodnight Nollie!
N: goodnight princess! Call or text me if you have any nightmares alright!
I: yes Nollie yes I will goodnight!
N: damn it I hate it when you call me Nollie!
I: Ha Ha goodnight!
N: goodnight!
I turn my face to Valerie.
" my love I'm going to bed are you going to join me or are you going in later?" Vavlarie snaps her head up in alert, processing what I just said.
" I guess I'll go with you now I don't want to wake you up later" Valerie states plainly
We both get off the couch and head over towards the bedroom, sleepily and lazily.
The lights are already off because we know how lazy we can be. We walk into the bed room and start to strip off. We both are in our tank tops and 1d pyjama shorts. We both climb into bed. I plug my phone into the charger, it make a slight dinging noise signifying that it is charging. I lock the screen and close my eyes. Bracing myself for the terrible dream that is yet to come. The dream I have every night, the dream of the night I died.
It was pitch black. It was cold but I was burning up. My arms and legs are tied together. My captor is laughing at me. My wrists, arms, thighs and stomach are bleeding heavily. It burns and sting but I must not cry, if I cry I will only be punished later. This time is different though... I feel weak I mean I always am but this time I feel like I have no control. My eyes start to droop. I hear him screaming.
"DON'T YOU DARE DIE ON ME YOU STUPID SLUT" I feel I sharp pain I'm my shoulder knowing its the knife again. I start to fade but this time I he stops screaming and I hear a new noise. Gunshots . I hear a thump then men and woman screaming for something. An ambulance? I feel my self being lifted and something is being pressed against my cuts. Then I am plunged into unconsciousness.
The next moment I awake to me being in a type of meadow. I consciously don't know we're I'm going but I'm drawn to some were I'm not sure, but I know I'm going to get there. Then I hear it a soothing voice.
"Isabelle my love... Come to me ...my child come and see me ..." I start to walk then its turns into a sprint. I come to a halt in front of a blinding light. However I can look at it. It does not hurt my eyes. This time the voice sounds pained and hurt not very soothing. What it says crushes me heart.
"Isabelle my love... My child I'm sorry I must send you back... It is not your time to join me and the others... You must go back to him... Just know that I am sorry..." With that I was jolted awake (she's still in the dream) to see a nurse with those weird metal panels. The nurse has a shocked look on her face.
"Your alive? " I sigh heavily I could free of pain but yet I'm here ...great
" how long was I dead?" I ask the nurse as if it was a casual question
She looked a little taken back from my question but non the less answered my question.
" you were gone for 2 minutes... but people who stay under that long they normally don't..."
"Live" I state finishing her statement.
" we'll yes " I sigh and roll my eyes. Just my luck.
(No longer in the dream) I sit up straight in bed care full not to wake up Valerie. Well what to do now... Seems like the perfect music room opportunity.
I get up and trudge downstairs to the music room. we live in a giant flat/condo thing so it's built with an extra room witch me and Valerie turned into a music room it's sound proof!
I don't like to sing in front of people so the music room is perfect. I walk into the room and smile. I love being in here. I close the door quietly making sure not to disturb Valerie in the process.
I practically run to the piano. I sit on the cool wooden stool. The pianos a bright red velvet color. My fingers run over the cold keys. They feel like ice but their soothing all in the same way. My fingers seem to know their place on the keys. Then I start to play.
'When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you'
I'm shivering I'm so cold. Damn it I should have put on jumper! I scold myself. My finger are numb so they practically burn. It's August in San Diego why am I so cold? I don't even care. I get up and walk out of the music room. I walk into the bed room and notice the clock says 7:35 wow. I really didn't sleep.
I look at a sleeping Valerie cuddling with the blanket probably thinking its me but she's deep in sleep. I highly doubt shell wake up its to early and she's not a morning person. I jog over to the closet. I throw on a black snug fitting jumper, and put on ,some socks.
Then it hits me like a brick. It's 7:45 and at 2:00 we have meet and greet with one direction. HOLY CRAP I NEED TO TAKE A SHOWER!
I jump on the bed screaming.
" IT'S TIME TO GET UP GET UP GET UP GET UP ITS TIME TO GET UP IN THE MORNING VALERIE COME ON GET UP!!!" I quickly hop off the bed and run into the bathroom locking myself in. Taking every ounce of precaution I can before the velociraptor gets up an strikes. Not two nano seconds later is there pounding feet on the wooden floor bounding towards the bathroom door and a screaming Valerie.
"IT'S EIGHT A CLOCK IN THE MORNIG WHAT DO YOU NEED? IF YOU SAY YOU HAVE NIGHTMARES THAT'S NO EXCUSE TO WAKE ME UP LIKE THAT ISABELLE!!!" There's a rapid fierce knocking on the bathroom door. I swear this girl is going to break down the door. I scream back at her.
" VALERIE IF WE WANT TO LOOK PRESENTABLE AT THE MEET AND GREET YOU HAVE TO GET UP NOW!!" The knocking has stopped. There's just a silence and a defeated sigh. Ha ha I was right.
"Go get ready Val do you wanna impress daddy?" I smirk knowing her love for Liam
I hear her sigh in defeat again.
"So I'm guessing your taking first shower?"
"You guessed right" I chuckle to myself as I hear her walk away from the door.
I open the door, cracking it slightly, while I watch her walk away in defeat, mumbling to herself.
"Got to look presentable for daddy" she huffs angrily
Its 3:30 in the morning in London. Most are sleeping others are watching tv silently . Now what am I doing? Still trying to cope between reality and fantasy.
I'm in my flat with my room mate Valarie on tumblr. We are currently obsessing over the fact that in tomorrow we will meet our idols. Valaries parents (the doctor and the lawyer ) bought us tickets and meet and greets to see non other than... One Direction. Thats what you get when your daughter and adoptive daughter are BOTH valedictorian. ( graduates at the highest of your graduating class so like a 4.0 every single year since like 6th grade) The boys are coming to San Diego tomorrow I mean their already at the hotel but we get to meet them and their concert is tomorrow. I'm so happy and thrilled which is a rare emotion for me. So currently I'm bitterly smiling at the picture of Niall Horan with his braces off.
My phone vibrates in my pocket I look at the ID and see this Nollie (i: Isabelle n:noelle )
N: hey lovelie how are you? You excited to see the boys tomorrow?
I sigh couldn't think of anything creative to text me could you?
I: yes actually I'm pumped to see the boys what time are you coming over to meet us?
N: well our seat are next to each other so maybe we could just meet up at the concert sound good?
I: sure
N: well my kitten have you been to see Dr.Ried this week?
I: Nollie you know I don't like talking about my therapy ... And yes I did go this week is was quite depressing why?
N: just wanted to make sure my kitten was alright!
I: well princess kitten paws is alright and safe! And princess kitten paws is going to sleep goodnight Nollie!
N: goodnight princess! Call or text me if you have any nightmares alright!
I: yes Nollie yes I will goodnight!
N: damn it I hate it when you call me Nollie!
I: Ha Ha goodnight!
N: goodnight!
I turn my face to Valerie.
" my love I'm going to bed are you going to join me or are you going in later?" Vavlarie snaps her head up in alert, processing what I just said.
" I guess I'll go with you now I don't want to wake you up later" Valerie states plainly
We both get off the couch and head over towards the bedroom, sleepily and lazily.
The lights are already off because we know how lazy we can be. We walk into the bed room and start to strip off. We both are in our tank tops and 1d pyjama shorts. We both climb into bed. I plug my phone into the charger, it make a slight dinging noise signifying that it is charging. I lock the screen and close my eyes. Bracing myself for the terrible dream that is yet to come. The dream I have every night, the dream of the night I died.
It was pitch black. It was cold but I was burning up. My arms and legs are tied together. My captor is laughing at me. My wrists, arms, thighs and stomach are bleeding heavily. It burns and sting but I must not cry, if I cry I will only be punished later. This time is different though... I feel weak I mean I always am but this time I feel like I have no control. My eyes start to droop. I hear him screaming.
"DON'T YOU DARE DIE ON ME YOU STUPID SLUT" I feel I sharp pain I'm my shoulder knowing its the knife again. I start to fade but this time I he stops screaming and I hear a new noise. Gunshots . I hear a thump then men and woman screaming for something. An ambulance? I feel my self being lifted and something is being pressed against my cuts. Then I am plunged into unconsciousness.
The next moment I awake to me being in a type of meadow. I consciously don't know we're I'm going but I'm drawn to some were I'm not sure, but I know I'm going to get there. Then I hear it a soothing voice.
"Isabelle my love... Come to me ...my child come and see me ..." I start to walk then its turns into a sprint. I come to a halt in front of a blinding light. However I can look at it. It does not hurt my eyes. This time the voice sounds pained and hurt not very soothing. What it says crushes me heart.
"Isabelle my love... My child I'm sorry I must send you back... It is not your time to join me and the others... You must go back to him... Just know that I am sorry..." With that I was jolted awake (she's still in the dream) to see a nurse with those weird metal panels. The nurse has a shocked look on her face.
"Your alive? " I sigh heavily I could free of pain but yet I'm here ...great
" how long was I dead?" I ask the nurse as if it was a casual question
She looked a little taken back from my question but non the less answered my question.
" you were gone for 2 minutes... but people who stay under that long they normally don't..."
"Live" I state finishing her statement.
" we'll yes " I sigh and roll my eyes. Just my luck.
(No longer in the dream) I sit up straight in bed care full not to wake up Valerie. Well what to do now... Seems like the perfect music room opportunity.
I get up and trudge downstairs to the music room. we live in a giant flat/condo thing so it's built with an extra room witch me and Valerie turned into a music room it's sound proof!
I don't like to sing in front of people so the music room is perfect. I walk into the room and smile. I love being in here. I close the door quietly making sure not to disturb Valerie in the process.
I practically run to the piano. I sit on the cool wooden stool. The pianos a bright red velvet color. My fingers run over the cold keys. They feel like ice but their soothing all in the same way. My fingers seem to know their place on the keys. Then I start to play.
'When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I
Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you'
I'm shivering I'm so cold. Damn it I should have put on jumper! I scold myself. My finger are numb so they practically burn. It's August in San Diego why am I so cold? I don't even care. I get up and walk out of the music room. I walk into the bed room and notice the clock says 7:35 wow. I really didn't sleep.
I look at a sleeping Valerie cuddling with the blanket probably thinking its me but she's deep in sleep. I highly doubt shell wake up its to early and she's not a morning person. I jog over to the closet. I throw on a black snug fitting jumper, and put on ,some socks.
Then it hits me like a brick. It's 7:45 and at 2:00 we have meet and greet with one direction. HOLY CRAP I NEED TO TAKE A SHOWER!
I jump on the bed screaming.
" IT'S TIME TO GET UP GET UP GET UP GET UP ITS TIME TO GET UP IN THE MORNING VALERIE COME ON GET UP!!!" I quickly hop off the bed and run into the bathroom locking myself in. Taking every ounce of precaution I can before the velociraptor gets up an strikes. Not two nano seconds later is there pounding feet on the wooden floor bounding towards the bathroom door and a screaming Valerie.
"IT'S EIGHT A CLOCK IN THE MORNIG WHAT DO YOU NEED? IF YOU SAY YOU HAVE NIGHTMARES THAT'S NO EXCUSE TO WAKE ME UP LIKE THAT ISABELLE!!!" There's a rapid fierce knocking on the bathroom door. I swear this girl is going to break down the door. I scream back at her.
" VALERIE IF WE WANT TO LOOK PRESENTABLE AT THE MEET AND GREET YOU HAVE TO GET UP NOW!!" The knocking has stopped. There's just a silence and a defeated sigh. Ha ha I was right.
"Go get ready Val do you wanna impress daddy?" I smirk knowing her love for Liam
I hear her sigh in defeat again.
"So I'm guessing your taking first shower?"
"You guessed right" I chuckle to myself as I hear her walk away from the door.
I open the door, cracking it slightly, while I watch her walk away in defeat, mumbling to herself.
"Got to look presentable for daddy" she huffs angrily
Yay,now update!
5/19/14